Soldier's Heart - Noncombat wounds of PTSD

Retaliation

Needless to say I was emotional, still had post pregnancy hormones surging through my bloodstream, breast pumping and on Zoloft. By the time I was discharged, a combination of the Zoloft and my pending threatened Chapter 5-17, caused me to pace back and forth through the halls from May 16 through 18th, have insomnia (PTSD), especially the last day I was there and waiting for command to come. My brain and body were not functioning well that day, I never had a sense of "fear, paranoia, fixation with doors, a feeling of being afraid of how my unit would receive me and how my body was reacting on Zoloft, caused the female Dr. who examined for PPD look in my eyes while I was sobbing, shaking, paranoia and asking "Why do look so scared?".

That experience effected my career negatively, interfered negatively with my marriage, and was why I was later referred to a Medical Board and was the whole basis to Medical Retention Control Point.

I was hospitalized again less than 48 hours later due to adverse side effects from the medication causing this time "morbid suicidal thoughts ", spacing out, confusion and almost causing a vehicle accident with a semi-truck which my Commanders held over my head . After reporting to Command about the accident, I told them I didn't feel safe to drive. The medication impaired my ability to function which the current and former company command team used as a basis to type up the narrative new CDE after I appealed them twice and the Commander Statement attached to the Medical Board. I was impaired by the Zoloft for the duration of being back to work after release of discharge and for those 48 hours I was judged, counseled multiple times both times I was discharged and stripped of my desk, counseled that my security clearance would possibly be suspended, unassigned from my position and placed in the orderly room as a form of retaliation (supervision), and consistently being accused of unrelated misconduct in order to give me counseling and threatened that if I "continued" that I would receive another Article 15 and that they would press for unfavorable action.

The "demonstrated manipulative behaviors that interfered with unit cohesion" was about me exercising my right as a Soldier to seek out support and character letters, I was also verbally counseled don that and the Command team didn't agree with what I was doing, told me I was interfering with the mission when I was asking Soldiers of all ranks that knew me and supported me staying in. I was told that I am not allowed to ask the Soldiers on duty hours, that I would have to call them on my off time. But my Commander had already pulled my clearance, restricted me from computer access and refrained me from being in S1 around PII, phone numbers and names account as PII.

If the other documents were read, you found out that the Article 15 for FTR's was really an act of reprisal for contacting IG.

In my defense about the "constant command attention and direct supervision", correct me if I am wrong, it is standard military protocol after being discharged from an inpatient facility, the act of "direct supervision" was a tactic put in place for unwarranted physical visits to meet up with supervisors that the commander put in place and agreed upon for about two weeks or so. Unnecessary, I was not actively suicidal, if they were that concerned keeping me in the barracks would have been an easier choice.

I appealed two Command Directed Evaluation one by CPT E. and MAJ D.
Somewhere in my file my "credibility" is shot because, I am just judged off past medical history and not taken in to account the tenacity, resiliency and progress I have made these last few years. In my commands I am not taken seriously or respected due to this stigma and my leadership potential. Despite the stigma, I still persevere am positive, motivated, tenacious, hard working and that scares people with the potential these Soldiers keep telling me I have but not allowing me to advance.

Looking through just the one four page document of the Medical Evaluation Board, there is counts of:

5 retaliatory Command Directed Evaluations
3 threats of Chapter (1 – Chapter 11: Failure to Adapt and 2 – Chapter 5-17 )
1 attempted Medical Evaluation Board and Physical Evaluation Board

For a fact I was diagnosed with an Anxiety disorder from South Korea to until 1 June 2015.
That evidence contradicts the label of "chronic adjustment disorder". I was not diagnosed with an "chronic adjustment disorder" until after the medical board. Signs don't add up, I can see the foul-play within the text. The military behavioral health system should not be allowed to say I was treated. My command while in South Korea, when I initially came to Washington and we were preparing for deployment and when I was pregnant was being told not to go to my appointments and to cancel them or reschedule due to the needs of the mission. There is more to the situation than just these medical files. I prepared this document to make sense of the whole story.

At the time I wrote "I would like to be reevaluated not based off inaccurate medical record, and a reconsideration for proper treatment of my accurate medical diagnosis changed from "adjustment disorder" to "PTSD secondary to Military Sexual Assault." Many who support me see attachment of support letters, recommend after sufficient treatment for my trauma (EMDR) that I be placed back on Active Duty.

If this was not important to me and I felt I could lose this case, or if I was just making up stuff, than I would not have a chance. These words are true. I may not be finished yet on this document completely, here is what I have compiled."