Unforgettable Mistakes

Chapter 4

I never thought I'd ever be the type of person to hurt people. It wasn't intentional, I promise, but Omar was like a drug to me. I knew I should've been called quits with what we had going on but I couldn't. He made me feel so many things I had never felt before, not to mention our connection was on another level. Like I could just tell him anything and he'll know exactly what to say to make me feel better. Feeling this way about him while also still having so much love for Mike had me all types of confused. Choosing to keep both in my life was extremely selfish and I regret it to this day because Mike didn't deserve that. He was so good to me. No, our relationship wasn't perfect, but we were young so I couldn't expect  it to be. If I could, would I take it all back? I honestly don't know.....

*Knock, Knock, Knock* I just arrived at Omar's house and from the looks of it nobody was home..How this nigga gon tell me to be on time yet he taking all day to answer the door. Just as I was about to turn around and head back to my car, Omar opened the door in some basket ball shorts and no shirt. "My bad ma I had my AirPods in." He said as I walked in the house. "It's fine. I definitely was about to leave tho cause I thought nobody was home." I said sitting on the couch. "Ohh yea my car at the shop right now." "What about your parents?" I asked just to be nosy. "They left out about 30 minutes ago for some event for my dads job so I got the house to myself." He said proudly. I just nodded my head while looking off to the side. "Aight so let's cut the bullshit wassup wit us?" He asked looking at me. I bit my lip hoping he wouldn't get offended but what I was about to ask him. "I feel like we should act like it never happened honestly," his eyes went blank but he remained silent so I kept going, "I mean think about it..you love Crystal and I love Mike. It wouldn't make sense to hurt them because of what we did. Especially if we only see each other as friends you know." He raised an eyebrow and then sat on the love seat across from me. "Can you say something please." I said. "I mean there's no point you seem to have everything figured out right? That night obviously meant nothing to you and you'd rather act like it never happened then be an adult and own up to what we did right?" I knew he wasn't gonna make this easy. "Omar please try to be understanding about this. I just don't wanna hurt anybody." I say pleading for him to get where I was coming from. He just shook his head while leaning back further into the chair. "You selfish as hell yo." I could feel my eyes grow big cause what he said caught me off guard. Me? Selfish? Here I am trying to look out for other people's best interest and I get called selfish. Wow. "How tf am I selfish?? Have you not been listening to me?? I said I don't want to hurt anybody so how the fuck does that make me selfish." He just laughed sarcastically and shook his head again. "Did you forget I know you like the back of my hand? It don't even take that for me to know the real reason you don't wanna come clean about what we did." I just looked at him with confusion tryna see where he was going with this. "What are you talking about Omar?" "Oh don't play dumb Khrystina. You don't give a damn about hurting anybody, you just don't wanna deal with the consequences. You might've fooled yourself but you not fooling me and Ima go ahead and burst ya little bubble right now..keeping this shit a secret ain't gonna do anything but eat you up with guilt and make shit 10x worse. Oh not to mention it's gon hurt ya little boyfriend regardless of when you decide to come clean." Was he right? Am I really just doing this because I don't want to just face the consequences? I definitely it like being the bad guy in situations but I also do care about how much the truth might hurt Mike. "Your silence is just further proving my point not to mention how cute you look when you're thinking really hard about something." He said walking over to me and squatting down so we'd be face to face. He lifted my chin up with his finger and I tried to bring me in for a kiss but I turned my head. "Omar what are you doing? That night was a mistake and we should've never let it happen." I said getting up. "Bro here you go again with this shit man." I kept from facing him because I know I crack under pressure and I don't want to make the same mistake twice. "Stop fighting it Khrystina. I want you just as much as you want me." I heard his footsteps from behind getting closer. Then I felt his arms wrap around me and pull me into his chest. "I know this is wrong Khrys but it feels so right and I know I can't be the only one feeling this way." He pushed my hair to the side as he started kissing on my neck. "Omar.." I started but I didn't even know what to say I just let the lust I was feeling take over. I turned around so I could face him and looked him in his eyes, trying to figure out if I was really willing to make the same mistake again. My eyes went from his lips to his eyes and then he leaned in and we kissed.......
An Hour Later
Omar pulled out as he took the condom off and threw it away. I got up and headed to the bathroom to take a shower. As I waited for the water to get hot enough Omar came in and handed me a wash cloth and towel along with one of his t-shirts. "Thanks" I said while putting my hair up. "You wanna spend the night orrr..." I thought about it for a second. "Yea I can spend the night. I'll tell my mom I'm staying at Julia house or something." He smiled. "Cool ima order us some pizza." "Okay" I said as he left the bathroom and I closed the door. Honestly, I don't know what I'm doing. I thought I had control over the situation, let alone myself but yet here we are. I guess I'll just go with the flow and see what happens.

It's now after 10 and Omar and I have just been chilling and watching tv. His parents aren't home yet but he let them know I was here and they were cool with it. We had Martin on but I was mostly on tik tok while I was cuddled up with Omar. I was laying on his chest and by his breathing I could tell he was fast asleep. I, however, couldn't sleep. I started feeling guilty again about Omar and I so I built up a little bit of courage to text mike and tell him everything. I had a good little paragraph typed out until Omar moved in his sleep and rolled both of us over so he was now on his side holding me and I was facing his chest. Him moving caused me to drop my phone on the bed behind him. I got short arms but I still tried my best to reach for it. "Go to sleep baby girl." Omar croaked out, scaring the shit out of me. "My phone fell behind you tho." I said in a whisper. I didn't get a response so I took that as an opportunity to try to reach over top of him again. "Mamas what're you doing." He said slightly opening his eyes. " I was tryna get my phone behind you." He looked at me for a second, I guess to process what I said since he was still half sleep, then turned to grab my phone and handed it to me. "Thank you." I said plugging my phone up and putting on the dresser next to me. I decided to not send the text cause that wouldn't be right so I'll just go to sleep and deal with the situation tomorrow. I turned to face Omar and wrapped my arms around him as I felt the comfort of sleep consume me, eventually drifting off to sleep....

________________________________
Hope y'all enjoyed the chapter, I tried to make it long as possible.
Mike's character above^^^
See y'all in the next chapter❤️