Not the Alpha

07 Mate

"Now what?" Sam asks obviously upset with me.

"Carson." Mason prompts me.

"Hi Sam." I mumble. I look into her face. She just looks so hurt, angry, disappointed... she doesn't even know about Anna and she is hurt... what if I just want my mate. That's what happened with Anna. I wanted it to be true so badly... I can't do this! I can't go through this again!

"I'm sorry Mason... I just can't." I say and run out of the office to my house. I lock the doors and flop onto the couch.

If I start a relationship with her I'll hurt her. I'll mess it up. I mess everything up! It's no use. She'll get over me. She's  probably not really my mate anyway. She'll find her true mate. She's not mine... she'll never be mine. I can't hurt her like that.

I fall asleep on the couch.

"Get up Carson." Mason says waking me.

"I thought I locked the door." I respond not opening my eyes.

"And I don't care! Samantha kept Lacey up and she kept me up so now you're up. Training grounds now.

"Please Mason! Don't..." I stop when he gives me a confused look.

"Don't what? Everyone trains as Beta you are expected to attend and help train the men." He tells me.

"Oh... yea I'm up let's go." I jump up and run to the door when Mason grabs my shoulder.

"Carson, no one here is going to hurt you." He says. I give him a smile.

"I know Mason... now let's go! I actually like training." I turn to leave and he follows.

"Alright everyone!" Mason announces himself as we enter the group. "We'll start by sparing in human form! Gamma Thomas will be assessing your skill to see if he wants you for  his warriors. Beta Carson and I will be helping you improve in technique. Split into pairs and begin!"

I watch the men and women pair off until one pair catches my eye and I leave Mason's side.

"Try again." I tell the guy about to spar with Samantha. Her eyes shoot daggers at me.

"Are you planning to take his place?" She growls.

"No... we'll find a female for you to fight." I say.

"No Carson! If you can't do this!" She says gesturing between the two of us. "Than you can't do this." She points to where my hand is pulling the man away from her. I sigh.

"You're right." I say and her jaw drops as I release the guy. "Fight who you want." I walk away with clenched fists. I really don't like the idea of him touching her but she's right she's not mine.

"Jerk!" She yells after me then whispers "can't even stand up for your own mate... and I thought males were possessive."

She did this on purpose! She wanted me to stop her! Dang it woman!

"You done causing a scene Carson?" Mason asks trying not to laugh.

"Spar with me." I say to him in a growl. I need to let of some steam and I'll probably hurt anyone else here.

"Carson, I don't think that's a good idea... you know you won't win." He says. He just doesn't want to hurt me but right now I want him to.

"I know. Spar with me Mason." He sighs and nods.

"To the pin. I don't want this to get out of hand Carson." He tells me.

I take my stance as he removes his shirt. Most males do before a fight. I don't think displaying the scars that now cover my body would be a good idea. We begin to move around each other looking for weaknesses. I see none and he isn't lunging at me so I decide to make a move. I run at him throwing a weak punch to get him to dodge and spin around full force elbowing him in the ear.