Midnight Moonlight

wash away my scars

I wish I could drown

Myself in music.

I use it

To push away my emotions.

I'm not sure if you

Understand this notion.

I don't want to be depressed,

I don't need to confess,

I just need to get some rest.

As time flies by,

I wish I could see you,

I wish you were see through

then I would understand you.

Maybe in the cold winter,

You would hold my hands

Make my heart warm

And speak to my soul.

I'm told you've been doing better,

I don't think you ever received my letter.

I know you would rather avoid

This discussion

But I've been paranoid.

Your heart is on hold

And it's made of gold

Because mine has been cold

And you make me feel warm.

Maybe through this storm

Of emotions,

I can form

Proper sentences

To tell you

What I need to.

The leaves fall like autumn,

The wind washes away my tears.

I fear losing

Myself.

If only you could

Tell me the words I want to hear.

They're just around the corner,

They're near,

But I can't bring myself to say them.

If only I meant them,

I wouldn't have hurt you.

If you want to love me,

Please be my guest,

But remember,

I haven't felt love in a really long time.

It's a concept I've lost

And it's cost me tears.

Don't be exhausted,

You know I lost it.

I thought we could be more.

For once, I felt just fine,

But the grief keeps coming back.

Any more and

I'll have a heart attack.

Can you wait for me?

There's no harm in love,

But if you know the devil,

You know that's a lie.

I don't understand myself,

There's so much pressure