Manhattan's Finest

Chapter 4

I look down at my feet uncontrollably. "Umm well I don't know." I say defeated. I had cheated on Ryan but he wasn't the nicest guy. Always yelling at me for revealing too much around his friends and saying I was flirting with all of his guy friends.  I can still remember that party, Ryan and I had gotten into a fight about something careless he had grabbed my wrist tightly and wanted me to leave with him. I told him no and he just stormed off. I remember crying in the bathroom until he showed up, Will.  He put is hands around my waist. I didn't know what to do I was scared and uncomfortable. He was so much bigger than me. I shudder at the memory.

"I mean you seem like a nice girl."Asher tells me. I just nod my head.

"Yeah I don't know I just wasn't happy with him." I proclaimed. I mess with my hands nervously. Asher notices my nervousness and apologies.

"Sorry, I understand if it's personal. I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable."Asher explained.

"Yeah, when I was with Ryan I  felt trapped. Like everyone thought we were a perfect couple, like we were perfect for each other and the more I believed everyone the more I let him lie to me and harm me." I admitted in a low whisper. Asher looks at me understandingly.

"I guess I just never got to hear your side of the story. I mean your such a closed off person.  I know you hang out with Kaliey and the other girls but I just never got to know you." Asher acknowledged.

"I just feel distanced around Kaliey and everyone else. Like they expect me to be this person that I don't even know who I am anymore." I respond.

"Yeah I know what you mean. Everyone expects you to be perfect but not too perfect and you have to be smart but not a know it all. And you just want to please everyone and be this perfect person that everyone likes." Asher trailed off. We sit in silence for a bit staring at the rain and the passing cars on the street. It's a peaceful silence and my eyes start to get droopy and my mind starts to wander and then before I know it I fall asleep.

When I wake up I notice I fell asleep on Asher shoulder. He too had fallen  also  leaning on me. I tried not waking him but he quickly awoke after me.The rain had slowed down to drizzle but it was still pretty cold. I wrapped my arms around my chest and shivered.

"Oh are you cold?"Asher questioned.

"Oh no I'm fine just a little bit chilly." I say brushing him off.

"You sure?"Asher persists, "you can use my jacket."

"Well I mean...you sure you aren't cold?"I ask.

"Yeah yeah I'm fine here." He hands me his jacket which is more than bit too big for me. It does make me feel warmer and a blush creeps across my face. Could I be falling for him?

Yes I did literally write this whole chapter today. I know I don't have a life. Anyways I binged all of the second season of the umbrella academy today and it was just 25 french kisses. I mean Klaus and Diego, beautiful. Favorite characters. So yeah hope you enjoy this chapter.