oneshots

depression

trigger warning: talks about depression and self harm!!

no ones pov

mackenzie was currently laying in her bed with her boyfriend, johnny and holding his head against her chest as he continues to sob uncontrollably.

"i just don't understand why you didn't  tell me! i could've helped you baby!" he screamed into her chest.

kenzie's pov

i didn't tell johnny i had depression and that i cut myself or that i recently started going to therapy.

i know. dick move but i just didn't want john to be stressed about this because he already has so much going on in his life that he doesn't need this to add to it.

so he found my antidepressants because my purse fell on our floor and everything spilled out and he saw the bottle and started asking me questions.

i just held him and let him cry until he calmed down.

"it's okay baby, you don't need to cry everything's okay bubs?" i said softly while running my fingers through his hair.

"i just- i just feel so bad i never noticed that you were hurting so i couldn't even help you. god i'm such a shitty boyfriend." he sobbed while squeezing me.

i pulled his head out of my chest and looked him in the eyes and said "heyyy. that's not true baby." and i have him a quick peck on the lips and continued to say.

"you're the most amazing, caring, sweetest and overall the best boyfriend ever. don't say that you're a shitty boyfriend because you're not bubba. i love you."

he sniffed. "i love you too but if you did love me you can tell me why you did this." he said as he pulled my arm to see my cuts i had.

i sighed and played with his hair with my other hand as he pressed sweet kisses to my cuts on my wrist.

"i honestly don't know why i did it. i just did it because of all the pain i was in. and i didn't know what to do." i said.

he started sniffing again which meant he was about to cry again. "b-but b-baby you had me this whole time. i could of helped you, we could've went through this together so you weren't alone." he sobbed.

"i know bubba, i know and i'm sorry. i wasn't thinking. do you think you can forgive me my love? i asked because i genuinely felt bad and wanted him to forgive me.

he looked up at me and gave me a quick kiss and said "yes baby girl i forgive you." and snuggle back into my chest.

"my sweet boy." i pecked his forehead "thank you baby. i love you i love you i love you." i said and then i gave him 3 quick pecks on his lips before i kissed him with all the passion and love in my body that i had for him.

"i love you too. now let's go to sleep i'm tired." john yawned.

"okay johnny." i said and went to go cuddle up next to my loving boyfriend and fall asleep in his arms.

paris speaks! this was so bad oml also sorry for disappearing out of nowhere lol. i'll try to get better at updating

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