Tyler, the best lover I've ever had. I met him at a dark place in my life, he was the answer to everything for me. He was the sweetest guy I've ever met, beautiful, needless to say I was lucky.
I still remember the first time we met. It was at Walmart, I asked a friend of mine who knew Tyler to acquaint us so I wouldn't get scared and run away. After they said their goodbyes he leaned in and kissed me then grabbed my ass. Yeah, I was in love. We then went on a nature trail and got handsy, the rest I'll leave to your imagination.
The two weeks of our relationship were magical, then everything soured. The conversations became hard to propel, and I could tell he wasn't interested. I then logged into my kik and got the message "What do you think about friends with benefits?" My heart started pounding and my stomach dropped. Did I let myself be used? Did he lose interest in me? Where did I go wrong? He broke up with me that night.
After a week of sending messages and trying to talk to him I gave up. Until I noticed there was something wrong. I took two pregnancy tests that came out positive. I sobbed for hours, I was on the edge. I couldn't take care of a child, not now, not ever. I told Tyler and he was freaked out too. We got back together and the pregnancy test I took that night came out negative, which made us both very happy.
To make things short and sweet, we are not together now. "We've run our course." as he says. And now I'm alone, once again.
But as of today I still have deep feelings for him. I still feel the same way I do now as when we first met. But I learned to cherish every moment you spend with someone because one day you will want to go back and experience it all over again. I didn't do that with him, and I really regret it.
