𝓦𝓱𝔂 𝓘 𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓜𝔂 𝓑𝓮𝓼𝓽 𝓕𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭

You Give Me Confidence

Confidence is something I've literally never had before, and I still don't sometimes. I guess it depends on how I'm feeling. As of the time I'm writing this, I had a mental breakdown earlier because of my looks and I don't think I'm fully recovered from it to be honest.

But whenever I talk to you and I call myself ugly, you're just like eXcUsE mE tHaT iS iLlEgaL and yk I agree bc I don't want you moving out of my closet lol. But it's really nice to have someone other than my m o t h e r tell me that, because my mom is really fucking cringe and whenever I do or say something stupid, she says "YoU'rE sO pReTtY" like that's all I have, and that kinda makes me insecure about everything else. But you always tell me I'm such a good person and after so many times of different people telling me that, I think I finally believe it? I think. I dunno, I think things sometimes that I feel aren't really fair to other people and I try to get it to stop but it just won't, so I need to live with it and stop being jealous of everyone around me.

You make me feel loved and you take me seriously when no one else really does. Because like, who would take me seriously when I'm literally dying inside and crying because of a dating simulator? I mean, when that stuff happens, I only get upset over bad endings because I feel like games and writing are really the only things I'm s o r t a good at, so when I fail at a game, I feel like a complete waste because I literally cAnT eVeN maKe A gOdDaMn PsYcHo AnImE bOy FaLl iN LoVe WiTh mE

And I know what I need to do to get the good ending for him now, but that's not the point.

Anyway, when I talk to you about that stupid stuff, you make me feel like it's not my fault even tho it totally is but the feeling that it's not is all that really matters so let's leave it at that. You make me feel like I'm actually good at doing stuff and whenever I vent to you about how I feel about myself, you always bring me up and instead of crying sad tears, I cry happy tears because you make me actually feel good about myself.

Like, w o a h

Sincerely,
Me