SeroKami- Till Death Do Us Part

I should be dead, not you.

It's my first day back working, but this time it was under Bakugo's agency. I hadn't worked in 2 weeks, I guess it was good. I got some time to process this month, it's been to much. It's been about a half a month... Maybe more? I haven't been counting, all time has stopped since Denki has died. I get up from bed get dressed and pull my hair back... dèjà vu, huh? I get to Bakugo's agency he puts me on patrol, right next to the place you died. I shiver and call him.
"Whadda want Extra?" he answers
"Uh, Bakugo?"
"Oh, Hi Sero..."
"You put me uh..." I swallow
I hear a sigh on the other end, "It's not a mistake. You need to toughen up, I know it was a hard month but you have to move on."
"Bu-"
He hangs up. Great, I thought. It's not that bad, no one goes here yet cause of the villain. People think more will come in this area, they'll all come back in another month or two. I walk around looking at stores and houses smashed from the fight, the construction was put off because it was their lunch break. I turn the corner and there. There it was. The exact spot you died. I take a deep breath.
"I can do this." I mutter to myself over and over
I walk past it, proud of myself for not crying. Then I remember I got to go around until 4pm. It's 1:21... I sit on the curb in defeat. I can't do this. I rest my face in my hands, why is this hard? It should be easy to let you go. You would've, you would've just married someone else by now. Oh, that reminds me. The note... here's what happened.
I was sitting on my bed looking at the box when I pull out a note. It seemed like it was crinkled up. I opened it and was shocked. It said:
"Okay Denki you can do this.... here's what you'll say after your first day.
Hanta? I love you. Very much... but I feel like we've reached a point in our relationship where I can ask you this.... *give ring* will you marry me? He probably will say no.... but I can do it!!! Don't say that future me, or that.... or this..."
He wanted to marry me... after he died. Well he didn't plan on dying. God, denki why did you have to die?! Why couldn't it be me? Why didn't I help? Why didn't I save you. I should've been the one to die... I didn't help you. All I did was hug you like a dumbass. Ugh. I hate myself for that, I bet you hate me too.
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I hear footsteps, I get up from the curb and walk towards them. It was just random construction workers. I continued walking around. Every time I passed where you died, I told myself over and over its my fault for not helping you. It's mine. Not the villains, not the hospital, not even you. Me.
I took the wrong turn once and came across a little bridge over a little river. I looked down, it was a pretty far drop. It was peaceful, pretty. It made me weirdly happy, made me forget everything for 10 minutes. Then Bakugo called me, he asked if everything was okay. I said nothing suspicious, and left and continued my job. After 4pm I went home. I was pretty tired. Tired of everything. I just wanted you here. I wanted you to be on the couch watching anime like always when I got home, I wanted to hug you from behind the couch. But when I got home the TV was off and you weren't anywhere. Why does my brain hate me? Why does the universe hate us? Why does the universe hate you? I need to stop. I got hungry so I made some dinner when I realized I made too much. I didn't want to waste it though. I sighed angrily and called Mina. She came over.
"Hello? Hanta?"
I walked over to her, we gave her the key to our apartment along with Bakugo and Kirishima. I hug her.
"Thanks for coming so soon." I fake smile
"You're welcome! Mhm, that smells good! What did you make?"
"Uh, nothing much just made some stir fry. Nothing fancy I just made too much." I took her jacket and hung it up taking her to the table.
She giggled, "Nothing fancy? Look at this set up! This is better than the dates I go on!"
I give a half smile, she frowns.
"Sorry."
I look at her, "For- What?"
She starts to tear up, "I'm so sorry I wasn't here for you that much... I didn't know what to do. I loved denki, not as much as you... but, I loved him. I did nothing to help you, you were in the dark."
I get up and hug her, "Don't worry, it's not your fault" I didn't know what to say.
She takes her napkin and bats around her eyes to fix her makeup. She smiles, then takes a bite. I do too.
"Wow Sero, you're kinda a bad cook" She, puts her fork down and burst out in laughter.
Her mood changes too fast, I burst in laughter too.
"You're right. Should I call bakugo and kirishima?"
She nods. I call them and we hang out while bakugo yells at me for not having anything good to make food with. Eventually he makes the best meal like always. It was the most fun I had since he died. When they left I just felt so alone and missed him more, I was right. I should be dead. Not him. I can't change it now though... but maybe I can make everyone's lives better...