PERFECTLY IMPERFECT by Jerry kariuki

Chapter:1

'Its been a long time coming miss...'the nice lady stated 'you have completely changed and I think you can stop seeing me.'
'Its intruiging that you still dont know what name to address me with.Just call me Mercy no more miss or mrs anymore' I replied
I had been visiting this place for the past two years of my life. I know it totally sounds like am in a brothel with a lesbian but my situation is worse- I am at a shrink's office.At 24 nobody gets what could be so wrong with my life especially because the paparazzi know a completely different srory. All they know is I am Mercy Cruise am 24 with three kids a huge mansion a sultry body too much in my bank acount and suprisingly no man.
Honestly I wasnt always such a mess or famous. In fact by sixteen I was the worlds geeatest loner (come to think of it I would still be famous because I would be in the book of records as the world's loneliest human).
So am still seated in that big leather couch,dazed,not moving. I simply can't believe am finally done with all the mental therapy. Finally I can keep my beautiful babies.
'Now Mercy you can go have that birthday party you could have had last week . You still have a whole life ahead of you.'my shrink said though to me it felt like I was being chased.
"Are you sure I won't go back there?" I asked hesitantly
"The mere fact that called it back there proves to me that you're fine.Mercy you deserve this so take it without holding back.
I walk out of the room with a smile. I don't need to pick a cab of course my driver is already there waiting for me. I know how he opens the door is not part of courtesy but more of him just avoiding a rude firing.
" where to maam?" He asks
"Take me home Luke. Thank you"
"Miss Patricia already took the children home earlier today. So let me speed this so you can meet them"
Just that thought made me tear up. My mom had taken my kids whwn I was at a bad place which was when I was 22.we agreed I would get them back only after gettin some help and apparently I was more addicted to my children than all the narcotics in my system because I checked into rehab the next day
By now the suspence should be killing you. You wanna know what messed me so bad well here are pages litterally ripped of my life. I will describe it how I saw it -subject to denial frm journalists or other people but honestly who knows you more than you know yourself?
I was a normal girl last born in a house full of girls.Mom was a lawyer though later she became judge Cruise.Dad was an engineer but after retiring he jusr stays at home enjoying the paychecks from the empire he built. Ariel my eldest sister is ceo to the empire.My other sister Trish decided to do Music and so as to dilute the trauma she added law to the mixture. Tracy my third sisterhad started on med school but she tragically died at 21 in a dorm fire.
Last kid in the house was me. I was a different kettle of fish all together. I hated school I didnt have friends and I was a bit more rebelious.
Since am givin a memoir of my life I will start from the first good day in my entire existence.
"Mercy don't do it you wount like it. Legend has it you will choke from the pain." Patricia -my bestfriend n only friend-said.
We were in a beauty palour on 31st december and I was just recently thirteen.
"It can't be that bad otherwise we wouldnthave so many people doing this. Pat youre just a sissy."I told her in defence
I closed my eyes and felt the cool sensation of disinfectant spread thriugh my ears.then on my eye n next thing there was a throb all ovwr my head and I felt hot. It lasted a few minutes and was gone. I opened my eyes and had a smirk when I saw three beautiful diamonds on me.a pair of earings and an eye bar.
"Cy you look gorgeous." Pat told me as we left and at that moment my self esteem sky rocketed

At that moment I knew something had changed Pat wasn't just just my friend she was more she wasn't family she was more. So later on during family dinner it wasnt shocking that Pat was there. I intentionally held my hair up so all my new accessories could be seen. Ironically no one said anything untill mom's new year speech

"Let's make a toast to the end of this year. We lived and achieved much. How I pray that we have a blissful next year where we tell each other things before we act reckless and just do them.Mercy please do the honours of breakin the toast."sje said and with that I was back from cloud nine and went straight to the subway.

"To new beginnings and appreciation in this house hold." I said slyly and raised my glass up.

I had thought wrong,my life didn't change I turned fourteen still unhappy and even more lonely since Pat's undived attention had been taken by some stud she was dating. Suddenly I was finally truly alone.