Heart Swings | Taejinkookmin✔️

Jungkook

I laid there still, trying to recollect things that had happened just few minutes before. I turned my head to look at the person whom I was deeply in love with.

Kim Seokjin, my best friend, my angel, my everything.

But to him I was just a fuck buddy.

I don't blame him. I don't say he used me, because I didn't reject him. I accepted him to fuck him on myself though I know he loved someone.

I let him use me atleast for now.

I don't want any one to take his miserable state as an advantage. I know I won't hurt him, and so does he.

I knew he was jealous over the girls who were flirting with his crush. He didn't notice me since he was busy in drooling over his crush.

But my eyes were only on him, and I know I can't have him.

How does it feel to live when you know that you won't get what you desired so much?

Jin and I had been childhood friends. When my parents died in an accident, his family took me and started to raise us together. We were brought up more like brothers, but we never saw like that. We were best buddies. We decided to live together in an apartment away from his parents, since we wanted to be independent. After high school, we worked part-time jobs to earn money.

It all started when we joined high school. We both were confused about our sexuality. But deep inside I always knew I was gay for my Jin. To confirm it, we both kissed. And that was the day when my fantasies about kissing him became reality.

His plump lips softly melted into my mouth. I could tell he loved it too. But I thought he would choose me.

To my unlucky it all shattered when the handsomest boy in our school crossed path in our lives.

I am not jealous of him. And I don't deny, he was indeed handsome. Jin and him would make the best couple. But I couldn't digest the fact that Jin was not mine.

When we were at a party, Jin got angry when he saw Taehyung making out with a girl. That night was the first night where Jin asked me to fuck him. I knew I shouldn't have done it. That was the biggest mistake I had done to our relationship. But I couldn't control myself when Jin was lying on my bed naked, exposing himself for me to ravish him.

And it didn't stop there. We fucked in our school toilet, park, and now in our tent. Sometimes he would fuck himself on me while I was asleep.

This was my relationship with Jin.

I don't know how long it will last, but for the moment I was happy that I had Jin with me. I know he would never see me as a lover other than his fuck buddy.

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I was sighing nth time today by hearing Jin rambling about Taehyung. Since he got to be partner with Jimin, while Jin was stuck with me.

We were now assembled outside while getting ready for our camping. We were wearing our sports uniform and were stretching as a warm up.

"Alright class, now that you got your partners, I want you to go hiking by following the map, and return to this place before 6. Am I clear?" Kim Namjoon, our teacher announced us.

We all said "Yes cher" in unison.

Though I was paired with my Jin, I was not happy. I want him to be happy with me, I don't want him to feel like he was stuck with me. I wish I could change my partner so that he could get to be with Taehyung.

It looked like someone up there heard my prayer, and suddenly I saw Jimin walking towards us.

Park Jimin, a cute little guy, an angel, best friend with Taehyung. I had seen him with Taehyung few times.

Jin and I exchanged glances when we saw Jimin fidgeting his fingers nervously and looked like a puppy with the cute pout.

"Ah, Jin. C-Can you pair with Taehyung. H-He said he wants you."

And I didn't dare to look at Jin's face because the moment those words escaped from Jimin's lips, Jin was jumping in joy and ran towards his crush.

I felt pang in my heart when I saw Jin giggling and acting cute infront of Taehyung. I shook my head when I heard someone coughing. I looked aside to see Jimin, smiling at me.

I must admit, his eye smile was something which I adored.

"H-Hi."

I sighed heavily and decided to ignore the fact that Jin was with Taehyung.

What did I expect? I knew I could never be with him.

I didn't want to be rude with this little angel, I smiled and we both started to walk through the forest with the guidance of map.