Heart Swings | Taejinkookmin✔️

Jin

"What took you so long, Kookie." I asked him with my hands folded against my chest. I saw him chuckling at my behavior.

"I just apologized to Jimin for not being with him. I used to spend time in his house."

Seriously he was testing my temper.

We both started to walk along the park, and saw him looking at the trees.

"Don't go to his house, Jungkook." I saw him halting his steps and looked at me with a weird expression.

"Seriously mind to tell me what's going on with you? You have been acting strange."

I smirked at him.

"You don't like this change?" I whispered lowly making him gulp by my voice. I knew he still loved me and I was in his heart. I could see the effect that I had on Jungkook.

"Stop it, Jin. You have a boyfriend." I suddenly froze when he said that. I bit my lips lightly wondering how to say this to him.

"Jungkook, I-I broke up with him."

"You what?"

I flinched a little by his sudden loud voice.

"I was reminded of your and our moments together when I was with him, Jungkook. I-I didn't want to stay with him, when my heart wanted you. T-Taehyung is really a good person, but I didn't want to cheat on him." I looked at him only to see his eyes getting angry.

"Are you serious, Jin? How would you know if I wanted you or not. You told me not to wait for you. You told me to move on. You threw me away when you had Taehyung. And now you want me? Am I a joke to you?"

I didn't know why, but I felt like I was tearing up. I thought Jungkook would be happy if I said I wanted him. But why was he acting like that.

"I know you love me, Jungkook. Even if I avoid you, you will wait for me." I said him confidently. But the eyes he gave me said me something.

"You are really crazy, Jin. Do you know how much Taehyung loves you. How could you do this to him. You broke my heart but I deserved it anyways. But what did Tae do? All he did was loving you and caring you. I sometimes felt jealous when he made you so happy. What's wrong with you?"

I snorted by his question.

"I told you, I have feelings for you now. I left Taehyung for you." I saw him shaking his head negatively.

"You have just destroyed what you had with Taehyung.You shouldn't have broken up with him, Jin."

I froze by his words. What did he meant by that sentence. I didn't like where our conversation was going. It was nothing like I wanted.

I wanted Jungkook to accept me and leave Jimin. But he was not.

"Why did you come with me and avoided Jimin, if you don't love me?" I asked coldly but I saw him smiling at me.

"You are my best friend, Jinnie. The person I loved so much in my life. How can I ignore you? I too wanted to spend time with you."

I melted in those words. I knew he loves me but why was he trying so hard to get.

"I-I realized my feelings for you Kookie. I am sorry for not treating you right. I left Taehyung feeling guilty. I- I love you. Please let's live together like our old times. I will never leave you."

I held his hands hoping him to hold me. But he didn't intertwine our fingers at all. I looked at him with tears forming in my eyes.

"Jungkook, say something. Don't you love me? Don't you want me? Your Jin loves you. Aren't you happy?" Jungkook released my hands from his wrists and looked at me in the eyes with a sad smile.

"Had you said this before you fell in love with someone, I would be the most happiest man on the earth, Jin.

But, now I don't want to hurt the person who did nothing except loving me.

I don't say I hate you, because I still love you, but now my heart and body belongs to someone. Now I love someone, who loves me more than I love myself.

In between this chaos he started to develop feelings towards me. And if I reject him just because my long time crush has confessed his love, I would repeat the same mistake which you did.

I hope we don't talk about this further in future. You are always my best friend, and I will be with you as a well wisher, not as someone you could use for rebound.

I don't want to hurt Jimin. I too developed feelings for him in the mean time. You hurt me more than enough for this life time. I-I can't take it anymore.

Do you think you can use me if you want and throw me once you get what you desired? I am not a toy to play with, Jinnie. You played my heart and crushed it like it was nothing. All I did was love you. But I don't blame you though. I allowed you to use me, because I loved you. Not anymore.

Never let your heart swing, Jin."

With that I saw Jungkook walking away from me. The tears were falling down from my eyes without a break.

Had I not used Jungkook for my selfish behavior, I wouldn't have lost him.

I clutched my heart and knelt on the floor while crying heart out.

The person who loved me, was getting away from me infront of my eyes. And I couldn't stop him.

The person you took for granted today, may turn out to be the person you need tomorrow.

You can play with them but not with their feelings. You will never understand the damage you had done to other's heart until the same thing is done to you.

And now I could feel how Jungkook would have felt when I hurt him, when I threw him like he was nothing.

Never take someone's love for granted.