THIS IS NOT ABOUT TMNT THIS IS A TRUE STORY THAT HAPPENED TO ME RECENTLY AND I NEED YOUR HELP ITS LONG I KNOW BUT PLEASE READ IT THANKS
I shivered slightly as I carefully jumped from one rock to another with my hands swinging in the cold breeze. I was on holiday in Africa with mine and another family; Madeline, my moms best friend, her husband Christopher, and their two sons. Leo was my age; thirteen and tall with blonde hair sticking up on his head. Blake was my older brothers age; sixteen and also quite tall, with curly blonde hair. I'd been friends with Leo since second grade, when we were both seven... What was that? Six years ago? He's quite good looking, very charming and also quite polite. He has green eyes that sparkle when he's content and seem sort of faded and dull when he's distant or angry. But most of all, he's quite the player... He has a girlfriend right now, her name is Lisa and she's actually not that pretty but looks aren't all that matters, personality is a lot more important and I feel really shallow about this but the fact that I'm pretty sure I'm better looking than her makes me happy. I know, it's stupid, right? When I told my little brother that I liked Leo, he said he saw a picture of Lisa and thought she wasn't pretty at all, and that cheered me up a bit.
"You cold?" Leo walks beside me, looking down at the ground. I shrug and he takes off the hoodie that was wrapped around his waist, holding it out to me, "Here." I smile and thank him, slipping it over my head and trying not to noticeably sniff it. It smelt like him and he smells good, who could blame me? After about fifteen minutes of walking along chatting to him about god knows what, we climbed back into our game vehicle with the rest of our families and drove along in silence. I get along quite well with him and the silence wasn't awkward, it was comfortable.
~two days later~
Dumping my bags on a random bed in the hotel room, I feel his eyes on me. "So Leo, Jemma and Lucas are staying in here?" My dad asks my mom who nods in response, adding in a snarky comment that made him laugh that I didn't hear. I'm sharing a hotel room with him and my little brother for the last night... Great... Catching on to my sarcasm? "There are two double beds so you and Lucas can share a bed," Leo smirks and I roll my eyes. "Nope, you and Lucas should share a bed," I object and he gapes at me, obviously disagreeing. "He's your brother!" He frowns and I pout at him, giving him puppy dog eyes, "Please? You're both boys and I'm a girl, so.."
Our argument goes on forever and soon enough we just gave up, not even deciding yet. Lucas fell asleep on one of the beds and now we're just standing there. "Fine," I huff, climbing into bed next to Lu. "Thank you. Cuddles?" He holds out his arms and I shake my head, smiling slightly, "No!" "Come on." "No." "Please?" "No!" "Fine..."
It's silent for what feels like forever and my breathing is shaky. I think he went to sleep but I'm not so sure because it's dark and I'm staring at the wall. "I know you like me." His words take me by surprise and I sit up slightly, turning to face him. "No I don't!" He isn't smirking like I thought he would be, he's just looking at me with a look... I don't know what it is though. Just a look... Kind of with curiosity. "Lucas told me," he laughs and I gape at the sleeping figure of my brother.
"No he didn't, he wouldn't do that," I argue, and he bites his lip slightly. "He told me the password to your phone though and I saw your conversations with Molly," ok now he's smirking. Molly is my best friend by the way, of course I whatsapped her telling her I liked him. "What conversations?" I think playing it dumb is the best option right now.
"Where you were like 'I have something to tell you... Wait for it... Wait for it...' And then she said 'you like Leo' and then you were like 'I like Leo. WHAT HOW DID YOU KNOW?!'," he recites and my cheeks go red but I don't think he can see them. He literally just recited our conversation almost word for word. "Damn," I mutter, loud enough so he could hear it. He laughs loudly and it makes me smile to myself. I love his laugh. "Don't worry about it. You know, I kind of like you too," he whispers and my eyes widen. "I really like you. I've always liked you, sometimes a bit, sometimes a lot," he says those simple words but for some reason it sounds like poetry to me.
"But you have a girlfriend," I remind him, rolling over to face the wall again. He stays silent for a while before finally speaking up. "I know but... I really like you..." I play with the corner of the blanket and don't say anything for a while. He has a girlfriend. But... Honestly I really like him and he's the first guy who's ever liked me back. "Can you come over here?" His voice sounds desperate and it makes my cheeks heat up again.
I walk over to the other bed. "Only because it's closer to the aircon," I lie and he sees right through it, laughing. Im sorry but I don't care about his girlfriend right now. I climb under his covers and lie there for a few years (okay it was only about a minute but it felt like years) before he wraps his arm around me and pulls me closer to him. I cuddle into his side, facing him with our foreheads touching and our breaths mixed. The butterflies in my stomach go wild and everything in that moment was perfect. I remember when we were in grade two and he was my first kiss... This is way better than kissing. I can't really remember what we talked about...
I remember small parts of it and I remember that we would say 'goodnight' then a few seconds later one of us would start talking again, and this repeated again and again. At one point he called me cute and I remember that exact conversation. "You're cute," he mumbles and I smile, moving closer to him. "I never really understood what cute meant," I state, the feeling of his hands around my waist enough for my stomach to feel like the butterflies were replaced with dragons. "I don't know... But whatever it means, you're cute."
I also remember other small conversations.
L: "It's really hot in here"
Me: "oh sorry that's because of me"
L: yeah it probably is
(We had this thing going on for a while with my little brother because all three of us hung out, where whenever someone said it was hot, we'd say 'sorry that's because of me, I'm just so hot' or something along those lines and then whenever it said it Leo would say 'no you're not' so this was really cute for me)
I also remember clearly him asking, "Can I kiss you?" And I swear I died in that moment.
But flash forward, he slept in the other bed with my brother and I slept alone in his original bed because he didn't want my brother waking up to see us in bed together (we're only thirteen!). The next morning I didn't know whether it was awkward or just silent... I remember the night before he said he wanted to be with me and the whole "what do we do about your effing girlfriend" conversation happened.
Leo: "What are we going to do?"
Me: "what do you mean?"
Leo: "when we get back to Singapore"
Me: I don't know... You have a girlfriend...
Leo: "I wish I could just..."
Me: "just?"
Leo: "be with you"
Me: "why can't you?"
Leo: "because of Lisa... And we have different friend groups"
Me: "so? We could still hang out with our friends AND be together..."
Leo: "do you think we would work out?"
Me: "I don't know... Yeah I think we would"
But then guess what happened? He stayed with her. Apparently he was confused and shit but I ended up telling him to forget about it because I don't know if I could trust him if we dated because he cheated on her so what would stop him from cheating on me? And now I feel like absolute shit for doing that to her; I freaking kissed another girls boyfriend! But we're only thirteen, their relationship isn't really... You know... And honestly I wasn't being a slut or anything because I didn't just kiss him, I felt a connection and he lied to me. He told me he wanted to be with me and then he just walked all over me and left me in the dirt.
Sorry but yeah I just had to let that all out, his name isn't Leo and his basically the only people in here who I used the REAL names of were me and Lucas (my little brother <3).
BUT WAIT I DIDNT WRITE ALL THIS FOR NOTHING!!!!!
I need help from you strangers; I can't get over him, I think he broke up with his girlfriend because she deleted the picture of them kissing from her Instagram page and stuff... What do I do?
Should I talk to him or forget about him?
HELP!!!!!!!!!
Thank you <3 !!!!
And I used the name Leo because... Yeah #ninjaturtles :P
