after logging on and off
wondering if i should speak
i finally sent a text
to the boy who interested me
i wanted to be his friend
and i wanted to ask if he was ok
because he always seemed down
when i read what his posts would say
we spoke and we laughed
we shared our troubles and our worries
until one day he got a bit to close
and crossed my lines and boundaries
the things he had to say
lit up the screen on my phone
and the image of things he wanted to do
would never leave me alone
when i tried to go along
with what he called "love"
i felt nothing but regret
nothing but disgust
i felt as though I had been led on
lied to and tricked
because this boy didn't look like a boy
he seemed much older instead
and after logging on and off
wondering if I should speak
i finally sent a text
to the man who scared me
i wanted to tell him he wasn't what i thought
and that he made me cry at night
i wanted to tell him that all along
that i was truly terrified
but the fear got to me
and i began to cry
so all i really managed to do
was delete his number
and never get to say goodbye
( 2018 )
