My Best Friend (A Nontoxic Pregame Saiouma Fanfiction)

Chapter 1

HEAVY THEMES. BULLYING, PROFANITY, PARENTAL AB*SE, MANIPULATION, S**C*D*L TENDENCIES AND THE F SLUR (I can reclaim don't worry) ARE MENTIONED AND OR USED/ DISPLAYED. PLEASE READ ON WITH CAUTION.

Also this is based on my pregame headcanons. None of this is canon. Also, obvious major v3 spoilers so do not read on if you've not finished v3.

Note: This is from PG Saihara's perspective

The teacher's words were numb in my ears. I already had gotten the gist of today's lesson and was trying to distract myself with thoughts of Danganronpa. After all, today was a good day! I actually had enough money to buy food! My parents never gave me lunch money or food for free, so I was really excited!

I looked at the clock. Five more minutes. My eyes drifted to my classmates. I liked people watching, but I had to be careful. If they caught me staring, they'd tell on me or something. I really didn't want them to be afraid of me.

Akamatsu-san was passing notes to Harukawa-san. She didn't seem to be paying attention to class.

My heart ached and my anxiety peaked. I was afraid of her. I was afraid of almost everyone in my class except for Ouma-kun. Akamatsu-san was different, though. She was like a ticking time bomb. Everybody had been more cautious of me ever since she started spreading rumors about me. They weren't true and it made me scared of what her lingering vendetta would lead her to do.

Things were complicated with her. Ever since we broke up, she had refused to talk to me. She had been with Amami. I think he was better for her. After all, she used to kiss him when we were dating. I thought that was bad but I didn't really know. I just don't want to hurt her.

It was ok though, ahaha! I had friends that supported me and helped me through a lot. Monokuma, Rocky and Ralph. Oh, and Kirigiri-chan of course. Did I mention I like Kirigiri? She's really pretty and smart and kind...I want to be just like her. She's my best girl out of all 52 seasons and I wanna be a detective just like her! Anyway, they were the ones who sat with me at lunch. It did get a little bit lonely sometimes, though. None of them could talk. Monokuma is a stuffed animal, Rocky is a rock, and I think Ralph got eaten by a bird? He hadn't shown up to lunch in a while. Maybe he was off doing rollie-pollie things. The gang and I missed him a lot. Since everyone's afraid of me, I tried to make them happy by making my own group of friends. My friends can't talk so they don't get bothered by me. We sit behind the stairs so no one else notices us. We like to talk about Danganronpa a lot! Danganronpa is really cool. It's my favorite show.

Wait, uh, what was I talking about...? Oh yeah! Sorry, I get distracted sometimes.

I think the lunch bell rang after that? I was thinking too much about Kirigiri to notice the exact moment. It was Amami-san who made me notice it was lunch time.

He flicked me on the forehead and I turned to see him towering over me with Akamatsu-san by his side.

"Hey, freak show," he called, trying to get my attention. "Akamatsu-chan needs the homework answers for today, but she doesn't deserve to have to talk to you to get them. So here I am, doing the dirty work as always. Give it up so you're not as much of an embarrassment to everyone, now will you?"

I jumped slightly, trying to grab my homework with my shaky hands. "Ah yes of course, I'm sorry you had to talk to me for her! I'm sorry Akamatsu-sama, please don't be upset, I-"

"Be quiet." She ordered, stone cold. "Just shut up and give it to me, I'm already shaking because you're scaring me so much!"

I shut up after that. I was shaking too, and I was about to start crying. I didn't understand what I did wrong, but I did something wrong and I scared her. I needed to hurry, give her the homework to copy off of, and get to my lunch spot so she didn't have to see me cry and get scared more.

I finally got my act together, handing Amami-san the homework. They started walking away. As soon as they were out of the room, tears started falling and I started shaking again.
"Stupid, Stupid, Stupid, Stupid..." I muttered, punching my hand into my palm to get my frustrations out. I almost started crying more, but then I remembered that Danganronpa auditions were soon! Soon I would be able to audition and not have to be me anymore...people wouldn't be scared of me!

That helped me calm down. I giggled as I packed up my stuff and headed towards the lunch line. I thought I heard more people call me names, but that was normal. I strutted down the hallway with a wide grin on my face as people stared and flinched.

Soon...soon you won't be afraid anymore! It'll be ok...Danganronpa will fix me...

I don't necessarily want to die. There's things I want to do in life, like make friends with someone. It's ok if I do end up dying, though. He'll be better off without me.

Whether I die or not, I'll be a different person. This me will be gone. Everything will be better...hehehehe...