sad!

waves

tw//su*cide (im so sorry for this idk)

i sat on the sea shore, my heavy eyes wandered at the water that stretched out to what looked like infinity.

everything was silent. i could hear the loud waves, which were high enough to swallow me wholly but gradually evened out on reaching the edge. i could hear birds chirping in their little flocks, the strong cold breeze, and my heavy breathing. i could hear it all, but it still seemed silent. the only sound i paid attention to was the one that called me from the beyond.

i let the foamy cold water run through my fingers, and closed my eyes. the water was ice cold but something in me wanted to get deeper inside the shining water. i closed my eyes and slowly lowered down in the water, shivers ran down my while body when the cold liquid reached my chest, but it didnt bother me.

i could hear the faint voice coming from the ocean. the waves seemed to call me to them, they told me what i most wanted to hear.

die.

the dark showed no mercy. not like i deserved any. the word kept repeating in my head. the voice grew louder every second, and i felt a pang in my head as a siren wailed imside my head. i buried my face in my hands and hit my head, trying to make it all stop.

and i knew there was only one way.

i got up and walked deeper into the ocean, feeling the same shivers as my body was gradually being swallowed by the icy water. everything seemed deafeningly silent. the steong waved pushed me back, but i kept walking to where my feet led me.

the waves were overpowering but i followed the urge for me to walk further into the deep. my eyes felt dead. my soul felt empty. nothing made sense in the moment. it was almost as if i were a ghost, non-existent.

non-existent... a small smile formed on my face.

the water reached up to my neck and i felt my breath get heavier by the second. i began feeling out of control as my feet lifted from the ground and i gave in to the voice that called me towards it.

this is your destiny.

a wave, wilder than any i'd ever seen, hit my face. it wasnt too large or too fast. it was wild because i knew it would give me what i needed.

i closed my eyes as i felt the water swallow me, nothing felt cold anymore, nothing felt dangerous anymore.

just, nothing.