TdBk angst (prepare to cry)

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Dancing here with you

It was usually cold at night.The breeze passing through my ash blonde locks.I was broken,hurt.
After he left,I couldn't keep myself together.
Suffering alone in the night sky with teary eyes.

Then,I saw you.You were just there leaning against the tree.
You waved at me while smiling softly.
I couldn't help but wave back.I felt slightly better.

Every night in the garden,I would always talk to you about my days.
I loved giving you nicknames like; Halfie,Icyhot,Half n' half due to your interesting hair colour.
I would ask how your days were but you always answered with an 'okay'.
Ever since then,I loved spending time with you.
I've never felt like this ever since he left.

Then,I did something I never thought I would.
I used to be afraid of doing it.Feelings are dangerous I reminded myself.
But I couldn't help it.
You were nice,sweet,loving.
And having you around me was magical.

I confessed my love to you and to my surprise,you felt the same way too.
You did something for me.You surprised me again.
Our first kiss was the best kiss I've ever had.
It was perfect.Everything was great.

We danced through the night.
We promised to dance with each other at least once a week.
You asked me;

"Katsuki,would you promise to love me even if I died?"

I thought it was a silly question since you know how much I love you.
Instead,I just replied;

"Of course Shoto"

And smiled softly as we kissed.

Two years had past by since we dated.
Yet again,you surprised me.

"Katsuki,will you make me the happiest man by taking my last name?"

You asked as you kneeled down.
I was shocked,nervous and happy.
I was certainly ready to be with you for the rest of my life.

"Yes!"

I exclaimed as a tear shred from both our eyes.

But of course,all good things come to an end.
You never told me that you were a ghost this whole time.
It was 10:30 pm when you told me that you were just a spirit waiting to fully fade.

I couldn't understand how the fuck you could just tell me it so simply.
You were everything to me!
I couldn't just let you go.
Not when we're fucking engaged.

I begged and begged for you to stay.
But god didn't listen to my prayers.Of course not.
I've been an asshole my whole life.

But you kept cool.
You suggested one last dance.
Even if my eyes were teary,even if I hated you so much for not telling me,
I couldn't stop loving you.

We danced for the last time with teary eyes.
With both my hands around your shoulder,and yours around my waist,
"Katsuki,I'll always love you,dead or not"

"And I love you too Shoto"

We shared one last kiss before you're gone,forever.