The dream

Chapter three

I go outside by myself as Amy got called inside. Looking up at the dark sky with the Stars shining, there so beautiful. I look around the pubs garden, seeing if I was the only one out here. Knowing what sam was doing was driving me crazy, I knew it was only a certain amount of time that this would happen. You see he's one of the bad boys in school, much like Jack but Jack does have a passion and his is music. I guess sams passion is just being a complete idiot. I lay my head down and just let the mild air drift over my body, closing my eyes and letting the breeze take my thoughts away. Until all that is ruined by the overly loud music blurting out from the pub, my thoughts drift back in and I hear myself saying, I bet sams gone off with one of them girls, I bet there making out right now or worse. I try and forget, but I have a big speech that I'm going to shout at him, to get it perfect you have to wait until the right time. Pour the drink over his stupidly good looking head, chuck the bottle at his horribly muscular body and leave. Perfect. Looking at my watch I decide now is the time to get my yelling on, I'm going to try not to cry, but knowing me I will get to overwhelmed and go into panic mode. dragging myself back to the pub, feeling a bit light headed and looking to find sam, no where to be seen. I search near the bar, near the tables, he's not with will and Ian, I stumble to the bathroom, there's a massive line waiting to go in. I had a feeling I knew why. But then the thought came into my head, maybe I'm just being silly? Maybe he's not as bad as I think he is?
"what's taking so long" I shout either because the music is to loud or because I have had a bit to much to drink.
"Erm, I think there's a boy and a girl in there"
That's when I feel my face go into a rage expression, the lock is Brocken so I slam the door open, and to my surprise find Sam with not one girl... But two.
I feel the words traveling my brain ready to explode out of my mouth, I feel the rage make my hands clench as hard as they can, screaming and yelling in my brain the words I want to say. But they never seem to come, I slam the door shut and feel my tears start to bottle up in my eyes. I turn around and walk away, starting calmly but then i explode and run, run faster trying not to look back.
"Lily wait" I run faster and faster, pushing and shoving past the people in my way, until I get to the front door. I hear someone running after me, turning the corner as I get out the door and I hide behind the wall. I hear sam open the door and I can sense him looking to see where Iv gone. My mind keeps talking to me
"Stupid, stupid, stupid, who would date someone like him"
I just want to scream and yell, the door slams and that's when I sink into my embarrassment, I crumble and try and act like I'm not here, I can't be, sam would never do that, would he? Would he? Sinking and that's when I feel myself starting to fade.
"Well hello stranger" I know that voice, Jack, I didn't know what to do, so I just sat there with my arms around my knees and my face buried in my knees. Not caring how I look, but just sinking into the embarrassment.
"Oh come on Lil, sams a idiot anyways" Jack approaches me with a bottle of water and some tissues. I stay in my position, embarrassed for what had happened, and then I feel his gentle hand on mine. I look up, probably looking dreadful, in a mess, with mascara dripping down my face. I look at him, with his kind smile and his nice face making me feel more calm, he understands me, and I can tell by just his look.
"Come on, let's leave this lame party"
Getting up slowly, with his hand clasped around mine, I stand up, and struggle to put a smile on my face. But his goofy smile helps me to.
"Where are we going to go?" I ask him, trying to breath.
"I have no idea." I looked back at the pub as we walk away, and yes as bad as this sounds I put my middle finger up at it, as this was the place I got hurt. And that's when I see Sam standing out the back, looking at me walk away...