The Girl Who Dies For Me [SATZU]

Chapter 21

< Tzuyu's P.O.V >

I was crying, but still trying not to make any sound. My tears kept falling as I was walking on the 2nd floor's hallway, I met the Minatozaki family's butler. He was staring at me- look worried.

"Little Miss..." he utter- I then run to hug him and cry on his shoulder. I felt him hug me back and caress the back of my head "It's fine little Miss... It's fine..."

He walked me to my room and made me sit on my bed. He kneel in front of me to let us see each other's face.

"Just cry... It's alright... Let go of what you are feeling..."

Mr. Park is one of the family's butler, he came after his father. He started working here since he was a teenager, and I used to play with him when I was a kid because Sana was forbidden to play by her doctor.

"What happened?" He asked

"Sana came home with a boyfriend" I said between my sobs

He extends his hand and wipe the tears on my cheeks "I knew it... I knew that you love her" he smiled

"And I don't know why is this happening to me..." I utter

"It's fine Little Miss... Love can be uncertain... You can't blame yourself for loving someone"

"Yeah... And at the end of the day we still work for them" I said

Mr. Park chuckles "I do, but you're not... You are family to them"

Yeah, he's right... The Minatozaki's so nice to me, they treat me as a family... I wiped my tears and speak again "Can I tell you a secret?"

He nodded "Sure"

"I'm actually about to confess to her... Today... At this very moment..."

He bow his head and sigh "Little Miss, it is true that unexpected things happen when we less expect it... I don't really know the right words to make you feel better... But let me tell you one thing" He lean forward and whisper "You look better than him"

We both laugh of what he said "Thank you Mr. Park"

He stood "Take some rest, your heart needs it"

I smile and nod at him as I lay with my back on my bed. I heard the door click, means he's already out. But just a moment after- I heard him talking outside.

"I was about to call Tzuyu..." I heard Sana's voice outside "She and Hiroki haven't talk yet"

"I'm sorry Ma'am but I'm afraid Tzuyu can't join you... She don't feel well" Mr. Park

"How is she?" I heard a tone of concern in Sana's voice

"She's resting now, so she can't join you. Maybe some other time Ma'am" Mr. Park

"I'll go back downstairs, please take care of her" Sana

I never heard anything after that, maybe they left already.
Good thing that Mr. Park's here to back me up. Cause if I see Sana while I'm in this state- I'll probably burst into tears in front of her.

I don't know how this happened... or why...
But I don't like what I am feeling, I hate this...

I get up to lock the door, they might check on me and I don't want them to see me crying.

So this is what it feels like...
When you're on the peak and have high hopes then shits happened...

I have so many things to tell her, And now, all those things I've memorized vanished...

But she shared a kiss with me...
And she was jealous of my brother- for thinking that there's something going on between us...

Mina unnie says the Sana felt the same way for me... but if she do, why is she with him?

I heard car engine outside, so I get off my bed and peek to see what's happening out there. And I'm glad that- that guy finally left.

I feel tired- as I walk back to my bed, and throw myself on it..

It is true that worse things come after experiencing so much happiness.

~~~

It's midnight and I'm still awake- laying with my back on my bed and staring at the ceiling...

Still thinking of why this has to happen to me...
Asking myself, why am I so unfortunate?

I flinch- hearing noises from my door, and when I look at it, the doorknob is moving.
Someone's whirling the doorknob from the other side.

Someone's trying to open the door, so I get off my bed and open it.
I was shocked seeing Sana in front of my room, but I have to act normal.

"What do you need?" I asked

"Mr. Park said you don't feel well" Sana

"I'm fine now" I lied

"You haven't eaten... I wonder if you want to have midnight snacks?" Sana

"No..."

She frown "Why did you lock your door?"

"I didn't... Maybe I accidentally clicked it" And again, I lied

"You're not good at lying Tzuyu" Sana

"I'm not lying"

"Can I sleep with you?" She asked

"No" I answered- nonchalantly

I saw her expression changed, I know she was shocked... This is the first time I say 'No' to her.

"We're old enough now" I continued "We shouldn't be sleeping together"

I didn't wait for her reply, I just close the door and lean my head on it after...

I don't wanna push her away,
I don't want to do this...
But things between us will never be the same...

Because she has a boyfriend now...

She already have someone to talk with every night...

Someone to sleep with...

Maybe I should stick to the plan...
And that is to die for her....
I shouldn't have dream of having her in my arms...
Or even loving her...

Those things were not possible...

Dreaming of her is delusional...

~~~

The whole school break is boring...
My brother only render his time on his company every school break- so he has a lot of meetings right now, and he's abroad... while Chaeyoung was under his father's supervision- he was training her in their office, and Jeongyeon unnie is attending summer class to catch up.
It's really fine with me that they're doing their own thing, but because they're busy- I can't tell them what happened to me...
I have nowhere to go, and I don't really like spending time in this house nowadays, specially that Sana's lover boy is here almost everyday. 😑

I was walking on the hallway when I passed the open door of the living room. I saw Sana and her boyfriend sitting on the couch.
The boy is about to kiss Sana, so I pull the fire alarm on the wall beside me.
That creates a loud sound which made them flinch and move away from each other.
I runaway after that 😅😂