I'm Yours

Chapter 3

"Clap along!" The Jacks are killing the stage as soon as all of the fans get in and settled.
"Alli, you go on in 45 minutes." Chad says as I sit in the managers room behind the stage with him.
"Okay" is all I can think to say. My mind is blank, I don't even enjoy to the Jacks' song. We can see the stage from a flat screen in the managing room as the Jacks' song ends and I see Cam and Nash go on the stage.
Fans start crying and cheering for them.
"What's up guys? Long time no see!" Cameron laughs into a microphone.
Cheers from the crowd.
"Okay, everyone come out here." Nash waves to all of the guys and Mahogany and everyone comes out.
"Dance party!" Cam says and everyone cheers.
"Yo, gimme a beat." Nash says and the Macarena comes on.
"Aye!" Carter screams and starts dancing. The fans start doing it with everyone and the song lasts about 4 minutes. Chad is laughing while I just sit here.
When the dance ends, Aaron and Jacob get the microphones.
"I don't know about you man, but the fans are pretty amazing at dancing." Aaron says.
"Yea, and they're cute too." Jacob says and the fans start screaming.
"In fact, I think we should get to know some of these cuties. Maybe we could dance with them? Who wants to dance with us?" Aaron asks and the fans literally go crazy.
"Alright! I'm gonna call out a number and if it's the number you got at the beginning of the event, come up here and pick your dance partner!" Jacob says and fans go crazy again.
I didn't know the fans got numbers but I wasn't too worried about the fans at the beginning of the event either.
All of the guys and Mahogany walk out onto the stage and stand away from each other.
"Alright, 42!" Jacob says and a girl screams.
The girl that screamed runs to the stage and goes right to Cameron. She looks about 10.
"Hi!" Cameron hugs her.
"67, 80, 55!" Three girls run, screaming and crying to the stage.
One of them goes to Shawn, one to Jacob, and one to Jack Johnson.
"54, 12, 69!" Three more girls run to the stage while everyone laughs about Jacob saying 69.
One runs to Hayes, one to Jack Gilinsky, and one to Nash.
I make a note to keep an eye on the ones with Jack and Nash.
After every guy and Mahogany has a partner, the lights dim and Thinking Out Loud by Ed Sheeran starts playing.
The boys put their hands on the fans waists, and some of the fans cry.
Nash put his forehead on his fans forehead.
I swallow my spit and look at Jack.
He's taking to his fan, happy as ever.
I put my head down and listen to the music.
Nash isn't taken. He's not yours, you're not his. Stop being stupid and feeling bad for yourself. He has to do this and so does Jack, I tell myself.
"You go out in 30." Chad says, cutting through the silence.
I sigh my response.
"This is a long song." I say.
"Yes it is, and I assure you Nash is wishing every second of it were with you." Chad answers.
"Doesn't look like it." I snort.
"Alli, come on now. You know he has to do this. It's a regulation. He knew it would bug you, but he thought bugging you a little would be better than not bringing you on tour at all."
I just nod as Chad looks back to the screen. The song ends and all of the fans hesitantly exit the stage.
"Like I said, you guys are great dancers." Aaron says.
"And cute too." Jacob says and the fans laugh.
"Gosh, you're all being so sweet and cute and lovable. You're adorable." Jacob says and a big '️awe' goes through the crowd.
"You're more adorable!" A fan yells and Jacob blushes.
"Alright let's take over." Taylor and Matt take the micro phones.
"Let's get some jams up in here!" Matt yells and everyone hears Red Nose start.
The fans all start grinding and twerking on each other and Matt and Taylor look offended.
"Let's show 'em how it is." Taylor says and he and Matt start twerking at the same time.
"Babes!"
"Oh my gosh!"
"Matt is hot af!"
"Twerk it Taylor!"
Those are only some examples of what the fans screamed.
"Come on guys!" Matt yells and all of the guys came on the stage to twerk and dance.
Jack and Jack do the actual Red Nose dance and Cam joins them.
After that song is over Jack Gilinsky takes the microphone.
"Okay, guys. Have you been having fun so far?" Jack yells.
Screams.
"We have someone to introduce to you. Alli, come on out!" I hear my name and head out the door.
I'm kind of shaky but hopefully Jack will say something to help me forget about it.
"This is Alli Kleinfield, as some of you know from some of our Twitter accounts. Her user name is @allikleinfield, you should follow her." Jack puts his arm around me and I wave.
"She is a long time friend to all of us guys and is a guest on our tour! Some of you may have seen her on the side of the bus. She's really funny, and sweet. Not to mention pretty. I think you'll like her. Say 'hello' Alli." Jack puts the mic up to my face.
"Hi, guys. You guys are all really pretty and I'm jealous." I laugh.
A bunch of 'hi's' and 'thank you's' and 'awe's' came from the crowd.
"Alright, so we'll ask Alli questions after we hear our very own Shawn Mendes sing his first single, 'Life Of The Party'!" Jack says and the lights go dim again.
The crowd screams and Shawn stands a the mic with his guitar.
"Hey, guys. Most of you gave already heard this song but it means a lot to me and I love singing it to you. So if you don't mind, I'm going to sing it another time for you. Love you all for your support."
Music starts playing and Shawn starts strumming his guitar.
I walk backstage with all of the guys and Mahogany and they all come up to me.
"You're a natural! You look great in the limelight." Matt whispers to me.
"Thanks!" I laugh quietly.
"You're doing great. Just answer these questions honestly, but not too honestly. Don't give out any information that you want to keep private. Ever." Cam says and I nod.
The rest of the guys give me a few tips and Nash walks up to me.
"You did good. You're not acting nervous at all. Nice job." He says without making eye contact.
"Thanks, Nash. It means a lot." I say and he walks away.
Even when he's mad he still acknowledges me so that's good.
Shawn's song ends and we all hear cheers.
"Thank you." Shawn says and puts his guitar away.
The guys and I (and Mahogany) go into the stage and I hear Somo's cover of Power Trip by J. Cole play softly.
"That was great Shawn. Who has a question for Alli?" Jack asks.
Almost everyone's hand shoots up like at a school.
"Alright. Here." Jack laughs and gives the mic to a girl who's hand was up.
"Hi, Alli." She says.
"Hello." I say and wave.
"I was wondering what it was like living with the guys."
I laugh.
"Well, I've only lived with them a day now, but I've basically lived with Nash and Hayes all my life. Those two are the ones you have to watch out for. Um, but it's great living with them. Everyone is nice and caring and since most of us already knew each other it wasn't awkward. They treat me like I'm family so it's great." I say.
"She is family." Cam corrects me.
The girl hands it to another girl.
"Do you think any of the guys are boyfriend material?"
I giggle and everyone says "Oh!"
"Hey, all of these guys are amazing." I look at Nash and Jack.
"But, I mean, they're all nice and beyond sweet. They're pretty cute too." I laugh.
"But, yes. They're all boyfriend material and a girl who gets to date any of these guys is beyond blessed." I say and all of the guys hug me.
"Group hug." Matthew says into the mic and joins.
After we all hug each other, I am asked a few more questions and then Nash makes an announcement.
"Alright, one more question for Alli and then we're going to play truth or dare." Nash says.
"Alli. We've all seen the sweet comments about you from Nash and pictures of you two on his Twitter. What at is going on between you two?" A fan with the mic asks and I look at Nash.
"Um, well, I mean..." I bite my lip.
"There's nothing official between us right now except that we're best friends. We've known each other since kindergarten and he's always been there for me." I say.
"And I always will be." Nash speaks up and the crowd awes.
Nash and I hug and I assume we just made up.
A rush of relief flows over me until I see Jack sort of roll his eyes.
The crowd claps for Nash and I and the mic is handed back to us from the fans.
"Alright. Time to play truth or dare." Nash says.
-----
After truth or dare, 8:30 rolls around and all of the general admission fans are escorted out of the building.
"Bye guys! Thanks so much for all of your support! We all love you so much!" Hayes says and we all wave to GA.
"Okay, you are all VIP!" Chad comes on stage once the general admissions were out.
A quieter scream roars through the crowd. There's about 40 VIP fans.
"Give us 15 minutes to set up the tables and back grounds for your pictures and autographs. Just sit still."
Chad and the workers set up the tables while the guys, Mahogany, and I eat a quick snack of cheese and crackers.
*15 minutes later*
"Alli, you're sharing a table with Nash. Jack and Jack, you're sharing the table left to them. Cameron and Aaron are to the right of Alli and Nash." Chad tells everyone their spots and we all get there.
"You still mad?" I ask Nash as he sits beside me.
"No, Alli. You know I can't stay mad at you." He answers.
"I know." I laugh.
Nash and I are at the third table out of 6.
The first fan comes up and I smile.
She looks about 14.
"Hi, what's your name?" I ask and catch Nash staring at me.
"Alex." The sort of chubby fangirl shyly hands me her picture. It's a picture of all of us. The guys, Mahogany, and I. It already has 4 signatures.
"Hello, Alex. Did you have fun tonight?"
"Yes. The most fun I've ever had." She says and I smile.
Nash is still staring at me as I sign her picture.
I get up to take a picture with her.
"Can you get on my back?" She asks.
"Well, I mean, sure." I ask, a little surprised and scared to see if she can hold me.
I get on her back and we both smile for her camera, being held by her mom.
"Alright, Alex. It was nice meeting you." I smile and she steps a little over to talk to Nash, who had just stopped staring at me.
"Hi." I smile as a skinnier girl walks up to me. She looks about 12.
"Hi." She says, wiping tears from her eyes from meeting the guys who were at the table before mine and Nash's.
"What's your name?" I ask.
"Grace." She sniffles.
"Hi, Grace." I smile and sign her picture.
We get up and take a picture and she goes to Nash.
When she moves on to the next table, Nash looks at me and laughs.
"What?" I ask.
"It's just, you're a natural. I didn't get the hang of what to say until like my 10th event. You're pretty special." He says and I laugh.
"Well thanks." I giggle and look left to me.
Jack is looking at me and I smile.
He smiles back and a fan walks up to him.
"This is pretty fun, although I am tired." I say.
"I know. It's a little boring but it's great to see fans reactions. It's heart warming." Nash says and I laugh.
"Nice use of big words."
"I try." He smiles.
-----
"Shh, Cam. She's sleeping." I hear Nash say and open my eyes.
I'm in someone's arms and its dark. We're outside and I can see the tour bus.
"What happened?" I ask.
"You fell asleep when we were hanging out in the event room after the event. We thought you'd want to sleep in a bed." Nash says and I see he's carrying me.
"Oh, thanks. Where is everyone?" I ask.
"They're all in the event room. They should be coming back in like 30 minutes." Cam says and I see he's walking beside Nash.
"Oh. You guys could've just left me sleep there. You didn't have to leave." I said.
"No, Alli. It's fine." Nash says as we enter the bus. Cam goes back to the event room. I get on Gilinskys bed because I'm too tired to climb my steps.
"I'll go get your pajamas." Nash says and I fall asleep until Nash comes back in with my pajamas.
He sits at the bottom of Gilinsky's bed, which smells really good, and unties
my flannel.
He runs his fingers across my stomach.
He unbuttons and unzips my shorts and pulls them off.
He kisses my thighs and hips. I sit up and cup his face in my hand and kiss him.
"Alli baby." Nash takes my shirt off.
"What?" I ask.
"I love you. And..." I kiss his lips interrupting him.
He kisses me back.
"And I want you to know that I'll love you no matter what." He lays me down and takes his shirt off.
"And I'll love you..." I say as Nash's skin is pressed against mine. I feel his heart beating.
He runs his fingers through my hair and I lick his lips.
"And I know you feel something for Gilinsky. I know you do." He kisses my neck.
"Nash. I feel something for you, too. And every time I see you, my heart beats faster. Every time you kiss me, I tingle all over. You're my weakness Nash."
"Baby, I know. But I don't want you to love me until you know you have no other feelings for anyone else. You might say you don't but you do. I know you. I can see it. You like Gilinsky and Gilinsky likes you. And I know the only reason you're not talking to him more than you usually would is because of me. Don't let me get in the way."
"Nash, you're not in the way."
"But I am. That's why, I'm letting Gilinsky take you out this Friday. A day after tour stop number 2." Nash kisses my lips.
"What?" I pull away.
"Alli, don't be mad. I want you to see how it will work out with you and Jack. Cam thinks that this is the best way to figure out what's between you two also. If you find something special between you two, I won't be holding you back. And if you think what we have is more special then come back to me. I want you to have this experience. I want you to fall in love with the right person. Not just who you feel like you're in love with."
"I am in love with you Nash. You're the one for me." I say.
"Alli, please. Do this, for me. He's taking you to a fancy restaurant. Wear something that makes you feel beautiful. Please. I'll still get to see you in it. It just won't be me you're dancing with."
"Nash.."
"You have no choice. Please, baby." Nash says.
I sigh.
"Fine. But Jack is going to have to make me love him more than I love you. And that'll be hard Grier." I say.
"Thank you. I'll love you no matter what choice you make. I always will." Nash kisses me and slides my Nike shorts onto my body. He puts his tee shirt on me as a pajama shirt and I crawl onto my top bunk. His shirts are all way to big for me but they're comfy and smell like him.
He puts my dirty clothes into the washer. Yes the bus has a washer and dryer.
He slips his jeans off and I watch him.
"Hot butt." I whisper.
"Thanks, baby." He hits his bottom and kisses me.
He can reach the top bunk with his head because he's 6'0. His tallness one of the hundreds of amazingly hot things about him.
"You're going to have fun with Jack."
He gets onto the top bunk on his side just as the other guys walk into the tour bus.
Jack Johnson looks at us and smiles.
"So that's why the bus was shaking."
"You're really funny." Nash says sarcastically.
"I know." Jack says as he gets into bed.
"Lights out at 2 am, only since you hosted an amazing event." Chad says and goes into his bedroom thing at the back of the bus.
Everyone cheers and Taylor and Matt turn the TV on.
"Hey, Alli. Can I talk to you outside for a minute?" Jack G. asks me, standing right beside my bed.
"Sure." I get up, even though I don't want to because I'm super tired.
Right as we head outside, I hear Taylor ask Nash if I was wearing his shirt. Then all the guys went "OOO" and Jack and I went outside.
I shut the door and looked at Jack.
"Okay, Alli, I have no idea what happened this afternoon when you were crying but I hope it wasn't anything I did or said. I'm so sorry if it was." Jack said.
"No, no Jack. It's not your fault at all. I was stressed and I feel childish." I lie.
"Oh, I know how you feel. Tour life can be hard. Being away from family and home. It can be rough." Jack says.
"Just know, I'm here for you. I want to build a better relationship with you. You can always come talk to me. And no, you don't have to worry about me telling anyone anything, I'm not that big of a douche." Jack laughs.
"Alright, thanks. I want to build a better relationship with you, too." Talking to Jack makes me forget everything that just happened with Nash.
"Really? That's great, because I was wondering if you would like to go on a date with me this Friday. But it's one day after the second event so if you don't want to I totally understand." Jack says.
"Yea, I'd like that. I'd like that a lot." I smile.
"Great," Jack smiles, "you and Nash don't have anything going on, right?"
"Right." I swallow.
"Good. I look forward to being such a lovely woman's date." Jack says.
"I look forward to being such a handsome mans date." I smile and Jack laughs.
"What?" I giggle.
"It's just, I'm so happy you agreed."
My heart melts.
-----
Over the next three days, the tour bus travels to Carson City, Nevada, and hosts an amazing event.
*right after the event in Carson City*
"Hey, Alli. Chad said I could rent a car to take you on a date so I did but how does it sound if I meet you outside of the tour bus in the car tomorrow night at 6?" Jack asks.
"Sure. That's sounds great." I say and Jack nods.
The bus is staying in the parking lot of the hotel that the event was in until midnight tomorrow. Jack and I have to be back to the car rental place where we're meeting Chad who's driving the tour bus to the car rental place so we can drop the car off and load onto the bus and travel to the next city.
"Hey, you're sure you want me to go?" I ask Nash once Jack runs off with some of the guys.
Nash and I are walking back to the tour bus from the event together.
"Yes, Alli. And I want you to have fun and not think about me. Please promise me you'll do that."
"Okay, Nash. I promise." I say.
We get into the tour bus and everyone is already in there.
Jack smiles at me and pats the spot next to him one his bed.
I sit next to him and he puts his hand on my knee.
"Hi." Jack whispers.
"Hi Jack." I laugh.
"Awe, look. It's the lovers that are going on a date tomorrow. No kissing, touching, rubbing, or feeling anything on her. If you do, we'll just say I'll cut your hotdog off." Cam says to Jack.
"Alright. Yessir." Jack put his hands up.
"We're going old school. The 'hands to yourself' rule applies on your date."
"Woah, bro. Chill." Jack says.
"Just making sure no one is confused about the rules." Cam looks at Jack and walks away.
"Does he always act like that to you?" Jack asks.
"Yea, Cam is just a little protective. My grandpa didn't even get Chad to watch me, he knew Cam would." I laugh.
"That's crazy. Cameron must really not want you getting hurt because he doesn't act like that to anyone." Jack says.
"Yea, Cam makes me feel pretty safe. I'll always love him though. No matter how pushy, bossy, or protective he gets." I say and look at Cam watching tv.
"That's pretty cool actually. And earlier, you said your grandpa. Do your parents not take care of you?" Jack asks.
"Uh, not exactly. They passed away when I was 12." I say, feeling a little sick.
"Oh my God, Alli. I'm so sorry. I didn't know that. You don't have to talk about it." Jack says.
"No, it's good to talk. They died in a car accident. It was pretty hard for me." I say.
"I can imagine. Well you turned out pretty amazing for someone with a tough past." Jack says.
"Thanks." I say.
"Welcome." He says.
There's an awkward silence and Jack wipes his hands on his knees.
"So, what do you want to do?" Jack asks.
"I don't know. There isn't much to do on this bus." I say.
"Let's play 20 questions." Jack suggests.
"Sure." I laugh.
"Alright um, what's your favorite color?" Jack asks.
"Blue." I answer.
"When's your birthday?"
"June 8th. Just like Hayes." I laugh.
"What about me?" Hayes asks.
"Our birthdays." I says and he nods.
Jack asks me the rest of his questions and by that time I'm getting tired.
"Hey, I'm gonna go say goodnight to Nash, I'll be right back." I say.
I get up and walk over to Nash.
"Hey, I'm going to bed loser." I ruffle his hair and hit his cheek a little.
"Sounds good, Alli. Night." I hug him and go back over to Jack.
I crawl up into my top bunk and Jack comes up there with me.
"Can I stay up here until you fall asleep?" Jack asks.
"Sure." I say and Jack sits at the foot of my bed.
"Yo, hit the lights." Jack yells to the guys and the lights turn out.
"Thanks." I say.
Jack strokes my small shin.
He starts quietly singing the slow song they played at the first event. Thinking Out Loud by Ed Sheeran.
"Darling I will be loving you 'til we're 70." He whisper-sings.
"Awe, Jack." I whisper and he doesn't stop singing or stroking.
"Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars." He sings.
I sit up and we come face to face.
Everyone is blurred out to me except us.
He keeps singing but is getting closer to me.
"We found love right where we are." After that verse he stops singing and kisses me.
His tongue slips into my mouth and I bite his lip.
"Alli?" I hear a faint voice say my name and I pull away to see someone's silhouette, looking up at us from the floor.
"Nash.."