AFTER SAYING GOOD-BYE TO Zia at the Great Pyramid, I didn't think I could possibly get more depressed. I was wrong.
Standing on the docks of the Lake of Fire, I felt like I might as well do a cannonball into the lava.
It wasn't fair. We'd come all this way and risked so much just to be beaten by a time limit. Game over. How was anyone supposed to succeed in bringing back Ra? It was impossible.
Carter, this isn't a game, the voice of Horus said inside my head. It isn't supposed to be possible. You must keep going.
I didn't see why. The gates of the Eighth House were already closed. Menshikov had sailed on and left us behind.
Maybe that had been his plan all along. He'd let us wake Ra only partially so the sun god remained old and feeble. Then Menshikov would leave us trapped in the Duat while he used whatever evil magic he'd planned to free Apophis. When the dawn came, there would be no sunrise, no return of Ra. Instead Apophis would rise and destroy civilization. Our friends would have fought all night at Brooklyn House for nothing. Twenty-four hours from now, when we finally managed to leave the Duat, we'd find the world a dark, frozen wasteland, ruled by Chaos. Everything we cared about would be gone. Then Apophis could swallow Ra and complete his victory.
Why should we keep charging forward when the battle was lost?
A general never shows despair, Horus said. He instills confidence in his troops. He leads them forward, even into the mouth of death.
You're Mr. Cheerful, I thought. Who invited you back into my head?
But as irritating as Horus was, he had a point. Sadie had talked about hope-about believing that we could make Ma'at out of Chaos, even if it seemed impossible. Maybe that was all we could do: keep on trying, keep on believing we could salvage something from the disaster.
Amos, Zia, Walt, Jaz, Bast, and our young trainees...all of them were counting on us. If our friends were still alive, I couldn't give up. I owed them better than that.
Tawaret escorted us to the sun boat while a couple of her shabti carried Ra aboard.
"Bes, I'm so sorry," she said. "I wish there was more I could do."
"It's not your fault." Bes held out his hand like he wanted to shake, but when their fingers touched, he clasped hers. "Tawaret, it was never your fault."
She sniffled. "Oh, Bes..."
"Wheee!" Ra interrupted as the shabti set him in the boat. "See zebras! Wheee!"
Bes cleared his throat.
Tawaret let go of his hands. "You-you should go. Perhaps Aaru will provide an answer."
"Aaru?" I asked. "Who's that?"
Tawaret didn't exactly smile, but her eyes softened with kindness. "Not who, my dear. Where. It's the Seventh House. Tell your father hello."
My spirits lifted just a little. "Dad will be there?"
"Good luck, Carter and Sadie." Tawaret kissed us both on the cheek, which felt sort of like getting sideswiped by a friendly, bristly, slightly moist blimp.
The goddess looked at Bes, and I was sure she was going to cry. Then she turned and hurried up the steps, her shabti behind her.
"Weasels are sick," Ra said thoughtfully.
On that bit of godly wisdom, we boarded the ship. The glowing crew lights manned the oars, and the sun boat pulled away from the docks.
"Eat." Ra began gumming a piece of rope.
