some songs I wrote

blurbs of lyrical thought

It hurts for a little while, I know but it'll change.
Things will be different and you'll be a new person someday.

Time is like the ocean and it turns and sways up and down tossing you over and sideways but there's always a place that's calm. Where nothing is gonna go wrong.

And even if it does it will be over at some point in the future. You'll be new and smoothed over on the beach and I'll be floating in the night sky.

Try and teach me something different than what I've been if all I've ever been is a lie.

And take comfort in knowing that if its bad right now and your head wants to hurt you and your eyes want to bleed that in some time ahead of you things will be so much better.

Apologize to yourself and take care of you for now because its all you have for your whole life and the world needs more love because there is never enough around.

If you can love me, help me love you and build a better head for all of us to see through and someday everything is gonna be okay.

That's all I want. For things to be okay.

I've got pretty purple flowers on my waist I wont forget the way blood tastes when you've bit your own lip falling backwards into a dark pit.

I'm a wretchid little thing and a monster to the world but fuck it ill still love myself if no one else will.
Which is hard to say cause I've been to places no one wants to be and stick in caves without the rest of me.

I turn into a ghost at midnight, and wait for the sun to rise.
And by the time it does ive gone home and turned to dust and my mom will sweep it up and throw it out so for now it's just us.

One day ill be whole and ready if I'm not already and one day I can tell you all my names and you might actually love me.

But who am I kidding to think that you care, if nothing else comes of this at least I'll know you were there.

I was born a thief like the rest of me and thats fine. Its fine. Really. Its perfectly fine.

Tonight I'm not okay. Or I haven't been in weeks and it only just now started creeping back to me. But its fine, you know? I'm a really good liar so when I tell the truth the likelihood that you believe me is low. I know.