Never enough

Not today please

"Luna Breakfast is ready! Come and eat"  Luna could hear her mother word for word but didn't have it in her body to move.

Her boyfriend has been cheating on her for weeks with the girl he made Luna be friends with. Why? She doesn't know but she likes to think it was so he didn't get caught. Cahjon respected Maple alot more than he respects Luna. Going as far as attacking Luna when she said she didn't trust Maple

"Your just jealous Luminary. She's done nothing wrong! She treats me better than you" what he really meant is he liked her body alot more. Luna spent a lot of money on him and he's spent none on Luna . He would always tell me  "I never said I would spoil you too" Luna would GIVE him money and ask him to buy her things so she could feel special, But in all actuality she was the one doing everything. She supported his dream to stream, buying him all types of things for his setup without so much as a thank you and he had the heart to cheat.

"I'll never be good enough.. why am I even trying anymore" Rolling over to get out of bed. Luna looked in the mirror. She rubbed around her fluffy belly. She glances at the weight scale in the corner of her room with hate. No one will love you if you don't love yourself first. I guess they were right. No one has yet to prove that wrong.

Sighing she walked downstairs and watched her family. Everyone had a smile on their face, she was almost scared to walk in because she knew the second she did those gorgeous smiles would be gone..

"Hey guys" the sound in the kitchen died down so quickly Luna's heart dropped.

   "Well if it isn't my least favorite fatso" Luna instantly looked to her mother hoping she would protect her but to no avail

"Yep that's me how are you Landon?" Luna numbed every emotion in her heart. She's gotten better at it everyday, now it's almost instant.

  "I talked to cahjon. Your lucky your.. overstuffed ass got someone like him"

Breathing deeply Luna looked at her older brother "Im luck-"

  "Luminary leave it. Boys will be boys"

"and since when does that mean I have to take his abuse" Luna felt the wind before she felt the slap. Her head hung low and you could hear her heart beat.

  "I don't understand why he stayed with you anyways. Look at you. You look like shit. How are you even apart of my bloodline! You look nothing like us. I wish god I wish mom had given you up."

Nodding Luna grabbed her food and went upstairs. Falling face first into her bed she finally let the years fall. I hate it here. I wanna leave I'm so close to just letting go but.. I don't want to? I don't want my life to end.. I just want this part of my life to end. Sitting up she's made her decision grabbing her suitcase and her duffle bag she starts packing what she knew she would need. Grabbing five pieces of paper for every person in the house including herself she wrote down everything she was feeling.

Dear Mom.
Your favorite phrase in the world is "boys will be boys" always excusing my brother's awful behavior and telling me that it's a blessing I got someone like cahjon but in reality it's a blessing he got me. I have him the world and all he gave me was some sand. I tried to be the best daughter I could. Made the best grades out of all my siblings. Got a full ride to college.. oh yeah! I got a full ride to college. Congrats to me. Don't you feel shameful that I couldn't even tell you this? Because you would've shoved it under something my siblings did? You never said you were proud of me but always made sure to take your live for me before bills so I could pay them.. I got the big job right? I pay the big bills? I quit it this morning. This is my goodbye forever.

Dear Dad.
I don't have much to say to you. I rarely see you but you're also a terrible parent. You sexualized me way to much and thought you owned me. I'm not property. I'm a person but I'm also the only child of yours you could show to your bosses because you other ones are half ass human beings who mentally and physically abused me..this is goodbye. Cute your dick off asshole

Dear Landon
Oh Landon. The things I want to say to you can't even be transferred to paper. I hate you with every fiber in my body. You were supposed to protect me from guys who use girls but you willingly threw me to the wolf's. I feel sorry for your girlfriend she deserves better.

Dear Aurora
You followed everything Landon was doing to me and thought it was okay. Brothers aren't supposed to treat their little sisters like that. They ARENT supposed to touch their little sisters like that. I never want to see you again. You seen him.. but didn't stop him. I was a child. Fuck you

Dear Luna.
Im sorry.. I'm so sorry I didn't protect you and all I did was make you numb to it. I should've protected myself better.. I will this time though. That's why we're leaving because we deserve better than this situation.at least I think we do.. until next time Luminary.

She could hear the front door close. Meaning that everyone left. Luna wipes her tears and puts each note in the respectful room and walking back to her room slowly. Trailing her finger ask the walls and all the picture she but her bag in the back of her punch buggie. Running back in the house and stocking up on food and snacks.

"Oh wait! Grandmas box! I gotta bring that. I haven't opened it yet ever since she died last year..she knew I would need it one day"

Quickly running back to her room she reached under her bed and grab the box checking that it wasn't open and happy that it wasn't. Walking back to car she gets in, looking at the house one more time before backing out of the driveway then driving towards the city.

Author note: I'll try to update every week! Just like with my other book!