Mi Luna

Chapter XIV

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Two days later, Father Chakrii allowed Sarawat to talk to me. He let him stay in the estate for the entire day but still being monitored by some of the Kirigun's betas. He told me that despite I am registered under the Kirigun clan, he can't erase nor change who I was. He said that since Sarawat is the only person I remember at the moment, he must allow us to be together. He can let Sarawat be with me but since the incident two days ago, he can't fully trust us to be alone together. He said that despite I only remember about my life being a Thiwat, I am still the child he raised for thirteen years and he needs to protect me.

"What are you thinking?"

I look up to Sarawat's intent look. He is seating in one of the white seat cushions across the oak low table in the center of the garden pavilion where we decided to spend the afternoon with. The low table is filled with iced chai tea and some Ben's Cookies which is my favorite according to Father Chakrii.

"Hmmm, about how tasty these cookies are? Father told me these are my favorites and I know why! They're moist and soft, not that sweet but it melts smoothly ----"

"Chanthira... you can always ask me about things, anything."

Just like before, despite it's been thirteen years, it seems like Sarawat and I are children once again. I really can't lie on him. He always sees pass through me. Even before he knows when I am lying. The times when I would keep my wounds and bruises, due to reckless running, being seen by Mom. He would go to my hut at night bringing up medicines to tend to my cuts. He would just smile and pat my head and my secret is safe with him.

"What happened to you? The day the rogues attack Ko Miang." I hardly finished my question as it seems like breathing becomes hard. There's a pang of pain vibrating in my chest as I remember Father's words when he had told me how they rescued me that day yesterday. I can't stop the tear escaping my eyes when he told me he found my parents lifeless bodies on our little home. The only living wolf in the area was me. He even thought I too was dead when he saw me lying on the forest grass until his son Tharn check for my pulse. They buried my parent's bodies in the island together with the rest of the Thiwats who died.

So how did Sarawat survive?

"I hid."

The next thing I knew, Sarawat's strong arms are hugging me from the back. He's also releasing comforting pheromones and I feel like I'm being lulled to sleep. Sarawat will always feel like home. A safe haven.

I let myself be comforted under Sarawat's warm embrace for a couple of minutes more. Having my memories for the last thirteen years being erased, it seems like the attack just happened days ago and I need someone to tell me that it's gonna be okay. That despite I lost my parents, I still have someone. That despite I feel so alone right now, I still have Sarawat.

I break free when I feel like I can hear his stories. I faced him when I feel like I can talk about the past. His hands never left my sides and stayed on it. Drawing little circles and comforting me every second.

"When I left you in the forest, I ran back to the huts hoping I could search for Mom. I tried to hurry Chanthira. I ran with all my might but all I've seen were our burning homes and our pack's dead bodies. Then there are voices and I felt so scared."

Sarawat trembles as he narrates what happened. He was still a kid too, might be older than I was but is still a child. Everything was burning and people are dead. If it's been a consolation, I should be thankful for having no memories of my dead pack.

"Being hopeless about everything, I ran back to the forest, to where I left you. I ran back fast too. But then there's an explosion and I lost consciousness because of the impact. When I opened my eyes, I was being hid under a huge bush. I don't know if it's because of the impact or some of our pack elders hid me. I searched the island for anyone. I went to our hiding place to look for you but there's none. There's no one Chanthira. There's no one..."