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mistakes in water; stenbrough

if you didn't read the description im redoing some of these because wtf
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bottom stanley

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Bill Denbrough was in love with Stanley Uris.

He's been in love with him since freshman year.

When he first fell in love with him, it was hard. He was confused with his sexuality, scared of losing friendship, and unsure how to face himself. It was intense, but he's grown.

He was now in senior year, ready for college the next. He's dealt with his feelings in really the worst way he could, by suppressing them. He tried but to no avail to ignore it completely. But he had no other option. Telling him would ruin his friendship with Stan. Which to Bill, was more important than anything.

So, he would continue to keep his feelings to himself.

It's an easy task to do physically. He just doesn't really touch Stanley, doesn't go beyond any boundaries regular straight guys do. Emotionally though, it was horrible. He was constantly fighting his own brain; trying to ignore his thoughts. He was totally engrossed in him.

He doesn't date people, it's just too hard. He'll never be able to replicate the feeling he gets around Stan with others, so he felt guilty to even attempt a relationship with anyone else. He's had sex with a few people. One-night stands, two-week flings. All which ended in Bill giving them some excuse, that he wasn't ready. He wasn't sure he'll ever be if it wasn't with Stan.

His day today was going the same as it always had. School just ended, and he was going to the parking lot to meet up with his friends. Him, Ben, Richie, and Mike were all able to acquire cars before graduating and stayed parked next to each other. When he strolled up to their usual spot, he could see everyone else already there.

He noticed Ben first, who was in his car with Beverly; the doors open as they talked to the others. Then Richie, who was sitting on his open tailgate with Eddie right beside him. And finally, his eyes fell on Stanley, and he felt a familiar smile creep on his face.

Stan was standing in between the two cars, facing and talking to Mike. He had his track shirt still on, and it looked like he slipped some sweatpants over what was supposed to be his shorts. His hair, which was slightly grown out, was sweaty against forehead. Bill gulped. The outfit made his heart skip a beat.

To be fair, anything Stanley wore made Bill flustered, but he especially liked his after-track outfit. The shirt he wore fit him tight, it was the only time he wore something that wasn't layered. When Bill walked even closer to the group, he was able to see a sweat stain in the middle of his chest. It stuck to his collar bones and outlined his shoulders. It made Bill feel a little dizzy.

Eddie was the first one to notice him when he walked up. He turned his head away from Richie and smiled at the approaching boy. "Hey Bill." He said, nodding his head. Everyone else, including Stanley, turned to look at him. Bill didn't have time look away before Stanley whipped his head towards him, and they made eye contact.

Bill let out an awkward smile, suddenly flustered at the boy's gaze. Stanley smiled back, making Bill's heart twitch. "Hey Bill." He greeted. Bill cleared his throat, nervously maintaining eye contact. "Hey Stan, just got out of practice?" Bill asked, throwing a question out randomly; It worked out 98% of the time. Stan looked down at his shirt and let out a chuckle. "Oh yeah, kind of gross." He joked.

Stanley pinched the end of his shirt and brought it up to his forehead to wipe it. When he did, it revealed his tight, muscular stomach. Bill's breath hitched, it felt like time was moving in slow motion for a second. He didn't prepare himself for Stanely to do that, and he couldn't help but immediately start staring.