loud thoughts, deafening silence [ Completed]

Death note

scared to sleep,
afraid that I'll close my eyes and die,
my eyes are open wide,
wondering what If I die someday,
what if that day is today,
and I'll say good bye.
what if I'll reach the point of no return and never come back to life.
what if I'll sing music of death,
but you'll have your ears shut.
what if I'll draw the painting with rivers in my eyes,
thinking that you'll understand .
what if I say poetry,
but you only think that it's lovely .
the day comes,
you understood the words said,
but it's too late.