Gambler //Ateez Mafia FF

Chapter 10 - Different

Sam POV

"Growing up he was either normal or different. No in between. When he was normal he would feel emotions like any of us do, he would be happy, sad, angry or whatever else of emotions. But sometimes those could get out of hand and he would become different. He would be agressive and be forceful with no emotions. For example, he was emotionless when you first saw him but when you were introduced to becoming one of us, his emotions flicked on like a light switch." Jongho said.

I just nodded towards him understanding what he was saying.

He continued

"With this he can't always make the best decisions, but we love him as a brother and want to protect him at all costs. However we have to be carful because once he becomes attached to someone it can become dangerous to a certain degree. He loves us as a family so he would never leave us or harm us unless we make him severely mad. As for Kami in this situation, he sees her as more."

"I don't see where you are getting at." I replied with confusion written all over my face.

"San had a girl once back in the day. Short way to say, he treated her badly because he was afraid she would leave like the other only female he had in his life, his mother. He is afraid to love someone in a relationship way, so he controls it by force. Don't get me wrong, he can be sweet at times during it but only around others because he can control himself when around us because we are his family." Jongho said looking at me.

"So you are saying that he likes Kami but can't be with Kami because he will be an ass to her all because he is afraid?" I replied to Jongho wanting to make sure I was getting this right.

"Yes that is right. He has been like this before I even met him or the others." Jongho said to me.

"Isn't this called being bipolar? At least in a way" I asked him. "If it is, there is medication that he can take for that." I said to him again.

"We know, he is on that. Since he has been on it, he has never had a big outburst, just a small one here and there and quick change in emotions." He said giving a small smile.

That explains why he needed meds earlier.

"Then why would you stop them? Clearly he is okay to be in a relationship again." I said to Jongho.

This story just keeps getting more interesting by the second.

"We would love for that to happen and for him to be happy again. But we can't take risks like that." He said to me.

"Why not? He is on the meds and I know Kami can handle it, she is tough!" I said with a bit of agression in my voice.

I know for a fact Kami is tough. Okay we'll only mentally, maybe not physically. How tf did she even pass out by the push from Mingi?! I will never understand that.

"His last girl passed away." He said looking down. "He killed her Noona when she didn't want to have sex with him. He was even more forceful when it came to sexual tension." Jongho's voice cracked as if he was going to cry.

"She became my Noona when you weren't here. The others and I were on a mission. She called me telling me to come back because San lost his mind, worse then other times. We dropped the mission and tried to get home as soon as we could but we were to late." He said breaking down.

I moved towards him and pulled him into a hug.

"I'm so sorry Jongho, I'm so sorry." I said.

It's all I could say.

I didn't know what to say.

Jongho just kept balling his eyes out while I comforted him.

"Let's lay down and take a nap, okay? We can have those sibling cuddles that you always wished to have like you told me." I said smiling at the little boy that was in my arms.

"Can we really Noona?" He looked up at me with sad puffy red eyes.

"Of course, come here" I said as I moved to go onto the made bed.

He came over and got himself in the bed. I opened up my arms signalling for him come here.

Once he was in my arms he laid his head on my shoulder putting his face beside my neck.

I started to rub his back to calm him down as small little wimps came out of his mouth.

Soon enough he was sound asleep in my arms.

I smiled to my self.

Maybe I can be the good Noona I always wanted to be.

A soft knock came from the door as it opened to reveal Hoongjoong.

"Everything is fixed out there now, is everything okay here?" He asked worriedly slowly making his way towards Jongho and I on the bed.

"Yeah, he explained everything that I think I need to know. He just started to break down towards the end so I put him to sleep." I said smiling still feeling proud of myself.

"I'm glad to hear that he told you." Hoongjoong said. "You really are a great Noona to him, you know?"

"I hope so" I said giving him a small heartfelt smile.

"He really loved her being his Noona but there wasn't one day where he didn't mention about how much he missed you and how badly he wanted you to be his Noona again too." Hoongjoong said smiling looking and Jongho like a proud father. "When we first met him, he was a small, young boy but now he as turned into a man. I'm proud of him."

"I can tell, you really look like it, especially in your eyes Blueberry." I said smiling at him.

"Good because I am also proud of you Strawberry." He said smiling.

"What? Why? I did nothing." I said giving him a confused look.

"Hmmm so fighting Seonghwa wasn't that big of a deal I guess. Same with having a normal conversation for once." He said smirking.

"You saw that?!" I said surprised.

I don't really know how I feel about that to be honest.

"Hmm yes I did baby, you did wonderful. You should be proud of yourself for today. You have been nothing but amazing today." He said getting up from the bed where he was sitting.

He made his way towards me and gave me a small kiss on my forehead.

It was different then any.

It made me feel loved.

It was a beautiful feeling that I never wanted to leave.

"You'll be an amazing parent to our kids one day." He said smiling making his way towards the door opening and closing it.

Well that feeling is gone now.

Good way to ruin the moment.

Hongjoong popped his head into the room one last time before he turned around a left again just to say..

"Oh and he isn't as much as an angel as you think, he was the second person to lose his virginity in this house" he said motioning to Jongho.

And with that he left me staring at my younger brother not knowing how I should feel now with the new information I just got.

Fuck he really is a man now.