My Light Through the Darkness

all i wanted was love

there is nothing to save me
no one to hold me
i am living i am smiling i am happy i am living a dream life but i am
living only in the out side
in the side am dying
my life is fake
full of fake people
who only love you when they want something from you
who love when you pretty
who be there to share your happens
but what about when am ugly will they tell me that i am beautiful
when I need shoulder to cry on will they hug me tell me its going ok
when am sad will they make me smile and happy
will they do that cause i never so them when i on my bad times
no there is nobody there for me no body i was lonely even when i was  surrounded by many
so i told my self to not have hope
i told my self there is no body to love care for me
so i accepted let the the lonely ness consume me
so lost contact with the real then start to living on my on my on world
but they keep call me crazy but they never understand
they were ones who made me like this they were the who push me away no one but they
only because I want real life real friend only because i wanted to be loved
so do they have aright to judge me??
can they judge for what I became but know I don't really care for what they think
after all I am the crazy one aren't I.