Find My Way| DaBaby Urban

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💙Y/N💙

It's been a year now since Jon and I been engaged and we have kept it this long between the family and us. Social media nor news outlets knew about our engagement which was weird only because Jon was very open about our relationship to his fans. It was to the point to where we weren't looking for anything involving the wedding. We talked numerous about it but he says there's nothing wrong and we're good.

I felt that if he didn't want to get married or be with me then he doesn't have too. If he feels like I'm a burden then let me move on and do me I keep telling him that. I'm not going to keep sitting here waiting for him to work with me and take the steps to further this relationship.

I was getting dressed to go meet up with Megan at her place. The girls were with my mother and Redd for the day while I relaxed for the day. I needed to vent to someone about this because it's fucking up my whole mood to the point I don't even be in the mood to have sex or anything.

Jonathan walked into the bathroom dressed
as I was fixing myself. "Where you going?" Jon questioned "out" I simply said. "You can see your way out I might be out for a minute" I added placing my natural pressed out hair in a messy bun.

"Bruh you always got an attitude now" Jonathan stated as I just shook my head "okay well bye" I simply said as he just sucked his teeth and walked out my apartment. I placed on some slides then grabbed my phone, wallet and keys.

I got in the car driving to Megan's place. I rung the doorbell as she came to the door.

"What's up with you?" She asked immediately reading my face. "Jon and this marriage bullshit like meg I'm tired of talking, I'm tired of feeling how I've been feeling how I've been feeling for the past year like I'm dead ass about to give up" I admitted as I started crying and she hugged me.

"First off stop crying" She started off wiping my tears as I sniffled. "You helped him right?" She questioned as I nodded. "You've been there for him right?" She asked as I nodded Once again. "And you loved him right?" She asked. "Yeah" I said.

"Then What are you crying for? You did all that you can do to keep you two together, he's not holding up his end" she said as a tear left my eyes. "Meg he's wasting my time I'm trying to wait and talk about it but it doesn't go anywhere" I said.

"Then baby girl you know what you need to do, you too smart and special to be dealing with this I understand you love him and he was good to you but this is ducking you up for real" she said.

"You had a miscarriage stressing wether or not if Jonathan wants you or if he's cheating on you or if the nigga even wants to get married to you. It's time Y/N" she said.

"Do what you need to do for you and your girls, don't have them watching you go through all of this and have a guy do that to them" she explained as I cried. I knew she was right but I didn't want to let him go and I knew I had too.

"He post all this extra shit but your engagement and it's been a year literally no one knows about it besides family. If he ain't posting you like he used too then He's trying to protect someone else's feelings" Megan said as I wiped my tears.

We were five hours in of just talking and hanging out as I was on Twitter seeing Jonathan tweet something as it came onto my feed. I read the tweet and instantly shook my head and sighed.

"I need to head out soon I got work in the morning" I said to Megan as she nodded. "Do What you need to do for yourself Y/N" she reminded as I nodded.
I got up and got in the car driving over to the studio where Jonathan was at.

I got out the car and went into the building finding the studio he was in. I walked in slowly and seen Jon sitting with

chance the rapper and other people. "Hey girl hey" chance said as I faintly smiled. "Can I talk to you real quick?" I asked him as he got up. We stepped out as he closed the door. "Whats been going on with you?" I asked calmly. "I'm straight whats up with you?" He asked.

"Jon you know what's wrong with me" I said. "We been engaged for a whole year when I bring up having a ceremony and getting married you shut it down" I said. "Y/N I'm working I ain't finna have this argument with you right now" he said as I nodded about to say something but then I heard a voice.

"Hey Jon" I heard as Jonathan turned around and I seen Danileigh. She smiled at me and walked into the studio. Jonathan just bit his cheek. "Well I'm done" I simply said. "What you done with?" He asked as I just tried handing him the ring back but he ignored it.

"What you done with?" He repeated "us" I simply said. "Cause of what? Her?!" He questioned as I just rolled my eyes. "Come on" he said walking away as I followed him. We went out to his car getting in as he started the car and we just sat in complete silence for a minute not moving nor talking just sitting there.

"Sooooo I'm just in here?" I asked "why you done now?" He asked "Jon if you don't want to get married just tell me that and I'll be on my way" I said. "That ain't what I asked" he simply said as I sighed and looked out the window.

"What you giving me back the ring for?" He asked "we're not doing anything, we constantly arguing about the same shit-"  I started off "because you always bringing up the same shit" he said as I rolled my eyes. "You acting like you don't want to get married and you said what you said earlier on twitter so I'm giving you back the ring" I explained.

"I'm not going to keep waiting and waiting and nothing happens Jon" I expressed and looked at him. "So what you saying, we done?" He asked as we looked at each other and I nodded. "You fucked up for that" he said as I just looked at him.

"You wanted the ring and I gave you the ring" he said irritated. "Jonathan I want to keep going it don't stop at no fucking ring, you want a family, you trying to settle down and I'm trying to do that but every time I think you're ready you do this shit and pull back Jon that's not fair to me" I said.

"Aight" he simply said turning off the car and getting out as I got out and got in my car going home. I walked in my quiet apartment and just started crying.