Might Get Taken Down

Namjoon

Stress

That's all namjoon could feel right now. Namjoon felt his body ache from all the dance practice they had got. This morning was hard as they were forced to wake up at 6 am which wouldn't be hard for them if they weren't late to dance practice which later they would have to record their dance practice then go to a interview.

No doubt they all wanted to go back to the dorms.They really wouldn't care but yesterday they were practicing as well so the day before left them drained out. They had a comeback soon and they all wanted to everything to go smoothly but this week they had been getting everything ready so that they can give spoilers/Teasers  to Army's.

"Alright one more time!"The choreographer said as all the boys groaned in annoyance. As much  as they love army's and want to do everything perfect for them they were tired. All the boy's just wanted this day to be over and go to their dorms and sleep.

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After dance practice namjoon went to go shower and to relax as they finally have a day off tomorrow. Namjoon went on twitter to see how his beloved fans were and maybe start a vlive. Namjoon was a bit happy to see if his fans could make him feel better but his smile was immediately gone as he saw what some army's had posted on there. 

Hoeforbtsthighs: Why is namjoon even in BTS?He's ugly.

Jungkooksearring: Namjoon should just leave. He's talentless.

RMshouldleavebts: He's nothing but a burden to BTS.

Namjoon felt himself start to tear up as he felt upset that his own fans didn't like him and wanted him to leave. 'Their thoughts are never going to change are they?' Namjoon thought as he was about to close the app when a few comments caught his attention.

Jiminsthickthighs: Honestly, why is Jihyun even with him?

btshater: What does Jihyun even see in him? He could be better off with someone much better.

Jinsshoulders:I feel bad for Jihyun who has to put up with that.

Namjoon at this point already started to cry as he closed the app as he threw his phone to the other side of his bed. Namjoon curled up on his bed as he didn't come on the social media after a rough week only to see hate to him. He didn't want to think negative as his boyfriend of 3 years doesn't like it when he thinks like that about him.

Namjoon didn't understand why people hated him.(Me either like people are missing out on this god and talent) Namjoon just wanted to dissapear  at this moment. Namjoon looked over to see what time it was as the time read 10:30. Namjoon started to get ready for bed when he was in his bed he started to let out some tears which then turned to sobs as he covered his mouth to prevent noises from coming out.

That night namjoon cried until he fell asleep.The next day passed and when he looked in the mirror he was meet with puffy eyes.

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After namjoon had done everything he did in the morning he went to his boyfriend's dorm as he was a idol as well. As namjoon was walking towards his boyfriends house the thought's and the comments kept echoing in his head.

He shook his head to get rid of the negative thoughts as he approached Jihyun's dorm. Namjoon only had to knock once before Jihyun opened the door with a smile as he hugged his slightly smaller boyfriend. "How have you been baby?" Jihyun asked as he closed the door behind them. "Mm...bit tired.you?"Namjoon responds as he heads towards the couch monition to his boyfriend to sit next to him.

"Good.wanna cuddle?"Jihyun opens his arms so that his beloved could go in them. Namjoon goes in his lovers in brace. Jihyun turned on the TV so that they could watch some movies.

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Once again Namjoon just had to go on twitter after they released a teaser to see army's reaction hoping that he could change their opinion about him. Oh how he regretted it. He opened the app scared he didn't meet their expectations but to some he didn't. At All. He started to tear up at what army's had been saying to him.

'He's gotten fatter','He's ugly' and much more about his photos and about his looks. Namjoon at this point started to let the tears fall down. He got up and looked in the mirror as all he thought was what army's had been saying to him. 'It's been such a long time since i had done that and i promised to Jihyun and the members i wouldn't but it Hurts' Namjoon thought as he went to the bathroom and got something out. Something sharp.

A blade was shown as he looked at his arms and put the blade on his wrist.Cut. He cut his arms and he way more to both of them. When he was done he looked at his arms in cuts and blood as he cried more and more till he once again had to cover his mouth to silence the sobs leaving his lips.

 Namjoon only realized what he had done and had to clean up his arms so the blood wouldn't get everywhere. When namjoon finished he sat at the edge of the bed looking at his arms and cried more and more.

Namjoon cried himself to sleep that night.

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That process of crying himself to sleep accrued a lot more. Namjoon decided he would  not tell anyone his pain not even his boyfriend who he promised to tell all his pain to.Right now namjoon was with his members on a interview. It was difficult for namjoon to hide his cuts as he would get looked at a lot by staff when in the dressing room.

When the boy group was supposed to preform for the fans namjoon was rapping and dancing when suddenly his world became black.

-Jin's pov-

When we were preforming our new song i was going to sing my part when. BAM. I heard something fall i thought it was something else but then i saw what it was an it was namjoon. I ran towards him as so did the other's. The music stopped and the audience was just panicking i screamed to the staff to call for an ambulance. The host was yelling at his staff to get a first aid kit or something.When i looked at his arms i saw something that caught my attention. 

Then i looked at his arms and lifted them so only we could see his arms. The other members eyes widened as i did too and we all started to tear up as what we saw on our leaders arm was cuts. I decided to look at his other arm as they were too filled up with cuts. At this point we all were crying even more. "D-Does J-Jihyun know a-about this?'' Jungkook said as he looked at the others.

We all shook our heads as the ambulance finally came as i called Jihyun to come to the hospital. We all finally arrived to the hospital as we waited outside the room of namjoons. Jihyun shortly came running with teary eyes as he spotted us.He looked at us as i explained to him what happened. He also had no idea that was happening to him.

The doctor finally came to us as he started to talk. "So,Namjoon fainted because he had not been eating or eating at all. He would either eat but then throw it up later. We treated the cuts so that they could heal. But Namjoon could be discharge in 3 weeks so that we could monitor him and so we could make sure he won't cut again.That's all.'' We said thank you and bowed to him as he started to talk again.

"If you're wondering when he will wake up he will wake up around 3 hours.Also, I would advise that you monitor him too so that he won't end here again. Someone that young and with good health shouldn't be doing that.Please" we all looked at him as we all nodded. Bang pd nim came as the doctor left as I once explained what happened. He then said he would release a statement.He told us we should take care of namjoon and that we would be taking a break.

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Bighit has released a statement as to what happened to Kim Namjoon,Leader and rapper of BTS. "We want army's to understand that Namjoon is apart of our team he is family.What army's had been saying is at fault for what happened.If army's have nothing nice to say to our members do not say it as you will be at cause for what happens to our members. Namjoon is in the hospital because he has stopped eating.BTS will be taking a break for what happened."