Everything Happens For A Reason

Part Three

Okay No I Wasn't Fine With Just Sex. I Loved This Man And Wanted Him In Mine And Our Child's Life. I Once Told Him I Love Him More Than Yesterday But Less Than Tomorrow. He Didn't Really Understand It Then But Maybe Eventually I'll Be Able To Show Him What I Meant. He Did Things That Pissed Me Off And I Know I Did Things That Pissed Him Off. That's Just How It Goes. I Love Him And I Want To Love Him Better Than He's Ever Been Loved By A Woman Before. The Reason I Left That Night We Fucked Was Because My Daughter Was Sick. Part Of Her Being Sick Was That She Didn't Sleep All The Way Through The Night So I Had To Get Back To Her. I Told Him She Was Sick And That Night, Told Him When I Got Home That She Was Still Awake, He Didn't Ask About Her Then And That Next Morning He Didn't Ask About Her Either. I Could Tell He Was Trying To Makes Things Kind Of Back To Normal. He Sent A Post That Said "Don't Cry When You Pregnant Cause It Was All Smiles When You Was Riding Dat Dick😂" I Laughed To Myself But I Replied "I Wasn't Riding Your Dick When I Got Pregnant But It Definitely Was All Smiles." He Was On Top And I Told Him "Nut In Your Pussy Daddy." He Listened. He Realized Him And I Had Some More Talking To Do. I Told Him How I Felt About Him Not Checking On My Daughter After I Told Him I Was Sick. He Stated I Never Checked On Any Of His Kids. Which I Didn't And Felt Bad Right Then. I Never Met His Children. I Knew About Them Though. He Spoke About Them With Me. All Our Fighting, Arguing And Heart To Heart Discussions Eventually Ended With Him Saying Be Had A Job Offer Which Was A 16 Hours Drive From Where I Live Now. He Wants Us To Move With Him. Yes Us, My Daughter, Me And Our Unborn. I Was Confused. We Had Been Fighting So Much Lately, More Than Ever And Now He Wants Me To Move With Him. I Knew He Wanted To Move And Start A New Life Somewhere But I Didn't Know He Had Me In The Picture. Later On Our Conversations Turned Sexual. This Wasn't Normal Sex Though. During Sex He Told Me He Wants To Treat Me Right And Be With Me. He Even Told Me I Make Him Happy. Never Has Those Words Came Out Is Mouth. Call It What You Want But I Believed It All. That Night Became The Night I Lost My Anal Virginity And We Both Enjoyed Every Second Of It. We've Both Been Wanting To Do It For A While Anyways. Even Tried It Before. But From Trying I Learned I Had To Be Really Turned On And Relaxed And He Did That. Needless To Say Were Back Doing Whatever You Call This Thing We Have Going On But This Time It's Better Than Before. He Went To My First Ultrasound Appointment With Me, We Cried Tears Of Excitement And Joy Together As The Ultrasound Tech Showed Us Our Baby. I Never Experienced The Father Going To Any Appointments With Me. He Even Held My Hand As We Walked Out The Hospital Together. I Haven't Had A Guy Hold My Hand In Over A Year. I Felt Complete, I Finally Felt Happy. Some Don't Understand Why I Love Him The Way I Do. It Isn't So Crystal Clear To Me Either. We Haven't Been Spending As Much Time Together As We Would Like But Things Are Good, Really Good Between Us. I Never Mention The Other Girl And Neither Does He. I Have This Weird Feeling He Is Still In Contact With Her But Can't Build Up The Guts To Ask Him. Life Can Never Stay This Good So I'm Going To Enjoy His Positive Energy While I Can. All Good Things Must Come To An End.

Since Him And I Started Back On Good Terms We Started Watching Twilight Together. He Already Watched Them All Multiple Times But I Never Watched Any Of Them. Every Chance I Got I Was Over There With Him Watching Twilight And I Couldn't  Help But To Imagine Him As Edward And I Was His Bella. I Even Told Him I Would've Been Made Him Bite Me So I Could Be With Him For The Rest Of My Life. Needless To Say I Meant It Too. One Night I Noticed Him Moving Funny. It Was Around 10ish When He Stopped Texting Me. I Was Home With My Daughter. I Automatically Assumed He Was With Her But Like Always I Didn't Say Anything. I Didn't Hear Back From Him Until The Next Morning Around 6ish. Back When All Three Of Us Were Hanging Out Those Were Her Times She Was Available To Pull Up. When He Finally Texted Me He Told Me That He Had Lost His Phone And Was Just Now Finding It. Couple Text Later He Stops Replying Again. Few Hours Pass By And He Tells Me He Had Fell Asleep. Now When I'm Over There With Him He Stays Up Until 1 Or 2 In The Morning Either Playing The Game Or Watching Movies With Me. Still I Say Nothing. I Had A Babysitter For That Day So I Brushed That Off And Went To Go See Him. When I Got There I Noticed His Sheets Were Off His Bed. Normally They Were On His Bed Unless We Just Had Sex And We Had Gotten Them Wet.  I Never Mentioned I Noticed That Either. I Just Continued To Act As If Everything Was Okay. He Said He Needed To Go To The Store. Most Of The Time He Would Run To The Store And Leave Me There Until He Came Back. This Time He Insisted On Me Going With Him. My Emotions Were Everywhere At This Point. I Just Knew He Was Back Messing Around With Her If He Ever Did Stop. He Knew I Was Gone Look Through His Stuff For Clues Like A Damn Detective Because I Needed That Proof. I Ended Up Crying Because I Wanted Carrots And Ranch But I Didn't Want To Go To The Store, Well From What He Thought. I Was Really Frustrated And Wanted To Ask Him Did He Think I Was Stupid But Couldn't Build Up The Nerve. Y'all Know Us, Later We Had Sex But I Wasn't Mentally Into It. I Couldn't Help But To Thinks If He Was Fucking Her Last Night Just Like He's Fucking Me Now. Telling Her The Same Lies He Had Been Telling Me. Just To Be Clear Them Fucking Isn't What Was Hurting Me, Like I Said I Knew She Wasn't Going Anywhere, It Was The Fact I Felt Like I Was Being Lied To. Like He Felt Like He Had To Hide Her From Me. Later That Night I Text Him To Tell Him I Knew He Was Moving Funny. He Claimed He Wasn't So I Broke Everything Down For Him. The "Losing His Phone" And His Sheets Not Being On His Bed Were The Dead Giveaway That They Have Been Fucking And He Was Trying To Hide It. He Explained He Was Drunk That Night He Lost His Phone And That His Sheets Were Off To Be Washed. I Apologized And Attempted To Move On But Things Just Weren't The Same. I'm Not Stupid. I Know Something Was Up. I Just Needed Proof. One Day I Told Him I Wanted To Come Over But He Wasn't Replying. Now I'm Like Fuck It, My Pull Up Game Been Strong. I Drive All The Way There And Yes, You Guessed It, Her Car Was There. So Many Thoughts Ran Through My Head. The Old Me Would've Gotten Out And Walked Right In That Bitch On All The Bullshit. If She Didn't Know I Was Pregnant I Was Going To Tell Her Myself And Wasn't Going To Care How Either One Of Them Felt But I Didn't. I Just Kept Driving. I Still Wanted To Text Her And Tell Her I Was Pregnant Or Even Send Her A Picture Of My Belly Cause I'm Definitely Showing But At The End Of The Day It Wasn't Her Fault. She Is In Love With Him Just Like I Am. I Texted Him And Told Him I Saw Why He Couldn't Text Me Back. Still Lien He Said He Was Trying To Go To Sleep. I Reacted To His Message With A Thumbs Up. I'm Hurt, I'm Crying, But I'm Done. I Deserve Better. I Deserve Someone I Don't HAVE To Share. Don't Get Me Wrong I Love Woman And Don't Mind Sharing But I Want To Do It By Choice. This Was No Longer By Choice. It Was All A Lie That He Didn't Have To Tell. He Didn't Really Want Me And My Kids To Move With Him, That Wasn't Just My Dick As He Would Tell Me While We Fucked. It's Going To Hurt, It's Already Hurting Like Hell But It's Time For Me To Let Go Of The Family Dreams I Had With Him. She Can Have Him Because I'm Done.

He Pushed Me Onto The Bed And Started Pulling At My Clothes And Kissing Me Literally Everywhere His Lips Could Reach. Eventually Both Of Our Clothes Were On The Floor. His Face Ended Up In My Pussy With His Hands Playing With My Nipples. He Folded My Legs Back And Put His Tongue In My Ass Which Always Made Me Squirt. He Slurped It All Up Then Came Up To Kiss Me With His Hands Now Around My Neck With A Firm Grip. He Slid His Dick In And And Moaned. Few Strokes In And We Were Both Moaning In Between Tongue Kisses. He Pulled My Hair To Have My Eyes Locked With His. His Strokes Became Harder But Slower. I Felt My Whole Body Getting Weak. He Knew My Body, He Knew What I Loved, He Knew What I Needed. My Climax Was Seconds Away Then I Woke Up. Sweating And Pussy Wet I Set Straight Up In Bed And Started Crying. Why Was I Still Dreaming About Him? Why Couldn't He Just Leave My Life Completely. I Had To Get In The Shower To Make Myself Cum. All I Could Think About Was Him. He Liked When I Sucked My Fingers While He Fucked Me. He Liked When I Called Him Daddy And Told Him This Was His Pussy, Which Was True. He Liked When I Rubbed My Clit With One Hand And Played With My Asshole With The Other. I Knew His Body, I Knew What He Liked As Well. Still This Whole Situation Was Bothering Me. My Hormones Were Literally Everywhere. I Decided To Send Both Of Them The Story I Wrote. He Told Me If I Wasn't Pregnant He Wouldn't Be Talking To Me. He Felt Like I Sent It To Her To Get Her To Stop Talking To Him. That Wasn't The Case. I Knew She Wasn't Going Anywhere. She Was With Him That Same Night, He Texted Me After She Left Then He Blocked Me. I Sent It To Them Because It's About Them. I Didn't Write It For Them. I Wrote It For Me, For Therapy, For Closure. After A Few Days She Finally Replied. Basically She Felt Like I Bashed Her On Social Media And She Knew I Was Pregnant Because I Wouldn't Drink With Them Before Our Last Threesome. None Of That Was My Intention. I Don't Recall Even Saying Anything Bad About Her. And Throughout This Whole Thing Her Name Remained Unknown. She Also Said Everything He Told Me He Was Telling Her. They Watched Twilight Together Too. She Told Him That She Feels Like He Imprinted Her. She Drove Those Same Hours I Did To See Him Out Of Town While He Was Working. She Called Me A "Typical Female" For Running To Social Media. Not Going To Lie It Hurt Reading All That. I Finally See He Manipulated Me, He Lied To Me, He Never Loved Me. She Wished Me Luck With Life Then She Blocked Me. She Told Me What I Needed To Hear To Be Completely Done With His Toxic Ass! After All What If This Was Just Lust? I Couldn't Help But To Think Will I Ever Be With Someone That Was Sexually Like Him. Most Of My Greatest Sex Moments Were With Him. Even Though I Went Through All This He Gave Me Someone I Can Truly Love Forever. I Love My Daughter, Don't Get Me Wrong. She's My World Literally. Women Are Amazing. I'm Blessed To Be Able To Have Another Little Person Slowly Growing Inside Me. Being A Mother Is Someone I Was Suppose To Be. No It Isn't Easy, I'm Going To Be A Single Mother Of Two With A Very Small Support System But I'm Going To Do It And Do It Well. Just Please Let This Baby Be A Boy.