To my future lover "SAVE ME "

"he's a bad influence"

so I have a bf and not ONE of my family members actually likes him, idc though because I love him and that's all that matters. a few of my friends have met him but I don't trust the other half of my friends to meet my bf, most people now a days just want to see you in pain, I swear . his names Joe and not only is he my bf but he's also my drug dealer , no I don't do drugs I only smoke weed , which is still illegal but there's no reason for it like it should NOT be classed as a drug its literally legal in most countries around the world. anyway , I started smoking weed when I was 12 lets just say I didn't have the best influences as I was growing up. well first off all, my father is a drug addict , who has been to rehab so many times and not changed a thing. he always hits mum when things get out of hand as in if they both drink ... which is basically everyday, as my mother is an alcoholic honestly i think my parents are just like perfect for each other. I have a half sister on my dads side  and she's not a good influence but she definitely the best out of all four ( I also have a brother . well get to him later), so my mother likes to blame joe for EVERYTHING, if I'm late to school , JOES FAULT, if i fail a class, JOES FAULT , if I get home to late EVEN THO I WASNT WITH HIM, she will still blame him , like wtf , who do u think you are. my dad just yells all the time so I just stay my room 24/7, unless its to go out to school , or meet my mates. joe is the reason why i have so much fun at parties , like don't get me wrong drugs are bad and all but cant hurt just to try once , right? for example once i went to a party with him , which i had to sneak out to be able to actually go cuz there was no wat i was w as walking through the middle of my parents daily drunk argument, that one was really flying off to , lol . joe told me to try something he calls a Pinger, its a pill but it was soooooo much fun and I've only done it like 4 or 5 times before, but even though i was pinging he told me to try one other thing called ketamine which was amazing.  overall joe is actually amazing and loves me to bits a wouldn't hurt me or do anything to hurt me , hes NOT a bad influence!