Tomorrow's Yesterday

Chapter 3

"Tosh?"

I immediately stood up to get out of the police station at saktong dumating yung pinadalang tao ni lolo. I told him to handle the accident I caused dahil hindi ko kayang manatili ron. I can't handle the guts of staying in that 4-cornered station with my ex. At least, I now know that I still am not ready to see her. 

I thought three years are enough to get over her, but when I saw her and heard her say my name, hindi pala sapat 'yon. I didn't expect to meet her again in that scenario in the first place. 

Ang daya ng mundo, ayaw ata akong sumaya. Pero hinanda ko na ang sarili ko that this day would come, that I'll see her again. Hindi ko lang talaga inakala na rito ko pa siya makikita.

So she really persued criminology. Way back, she was a secondary licensed professional teacher pero ang sabi niya, that was what her parents want her to chase but not her will. Gusto niya raw paglingkuran ang publiko and become a policewoman and she did.

Pumara ako ng taxi at dumiretso sa ospital. Pagdating ko sa kwarto ni lolo, nadatnan ko sina Tito Steve na nagpapaalam na. Mukhang uuwi na.

"Oh nandiyan ka pala Tosh, Are you fine? Sabi ni Dad nadisgrasiya ka raw?" tanong ni tito Steve.

"I'm fine tito. Nasa station naman na yung tauhan ni lolo kaya there's nothing to worry about." sagot ko.

"Kung ganon ay mauuna na kami ng tita mo. We still have a meeting to attend. We just dropped here to check out dad." that's tito Steve.

"No worries tito, ingat ho kayo sa daan."

"What happened? Ok ka lang ba apo? Aren't you injured?" he asked pagkalabas nila tito.

"No lolo, I'm fine. Sorry about the car. It was really an accident at sa kamalasan ko ho, police pa po ang nakabangga sa kotse". pagkukwento ko.

I stayed there for some hours. We just talked about random stuffs, like how I celebrated holidays sa Europe, mga lugar na napuntahan ko, at tungkol sa trabaho ko. I did not drop any clues about sa encounterment ko with Lorrie dahil ayokong umasa si lolo na matutupad ko yung hiling niya.

Pero hindi mawala sa isip ko yung request ni lolo. How am I supposed to do that ngayong alam ko na kung saan ko makikita si Lorrie.?

Nagpaalam na lang ako kay lolo. I felt so tired. 

"Maria, take care of lolo. I need to go home and have some rest. Lo, uwi na po ako. You better take a nap." pagpapaalam ko.

I went straight to my condo and took a quick shower. Feeling ko kasi yung 99.99% effectivity ng sabon ko ay hindi na tabla.

Right after cleaning myself, I opened my laptop na regalo ng boss ko to reactivate my socmed accounts.

Subsequently, sunod-sunod ang notifications na nag pop up from my friends at mangilan-ngilang relatives. I checked my last post on facebook and it's a photo of me with Lorrie sa bahay nila lolo. As I remember, pinapunta kami ni lolo nun dahil hindi raw maganda ang pakiramdam niya but when we arrived, everything seemed to be relieved daw eka niya. 

Nagscroll pa ako at halos pictures lang namin ni Lorrie during our trips and dates ang nakita ko. Before closing the tabs, I made sure that the posts' audience are changed into private, only me.

Ganon din ang ginawa ko sa Instagram, inarchive ko yung mga posts ko at dinelete yung mga highlights. Sa twitter ay wala naman akong problema dahil hindi ako active dun. Bukod sa puro rants ng schoolmates at friends ko yung makikita ron, maaasar lang din ako sa mga balita na mababasa ko for it's always negative. Hindi maganda sa mental health.