Once Flames Now Flowers

Chapter Six

Movies nights were fun at the trios house. They made popcorn and oiled blankets on the couch. It was like stepping into a time machine and travelling back in time to your childhood. Well, if you had a good childhood.

"Do you and Carlos ever have movie nights?" Roman asked as he saw how much Virgil was enjoying this.

"No, he's not really into super cuddly stuff. The most we do is snuggle in bed when we're both exhausted," Virgil answered, letting Patton pull Virgil in for cuddles.

"Well, I am a cuddle bug, so if you ever feel like you need a hug I will gladly provide one!" Patton chirped.

Virgil didn't know how to respond to the positive touch. It felt like fire but he couldn't say anything. He just let his skin burn as the intro to Big Hero Six began to play. But slowly, the flames turned to flowers and he didn't feel as bad.

Virgil sighed and snuggled into Logan, who was sat on his right side. Patton had snuggled into Roman and Virgil hadn't wanted to intrude so he went to Logan. The logical male didn't seem to mind in the slightest.

"You don't really strike me as the cuddly type," Virgil whispered to Logan.

"Well, I hardly get a lot of touch. Roman and Patton freak out so it makes me uncomfortable. But, you're more calm so it's fine," Logan smiled before turning his attention back to the screen.

Virgil snuggled into Logan's chest thinking about what the male had said. After much deliberation Virgil decided that if he ever needed a hug he would go to Logan rather than Patton or Roman. He knew he would never be able to go to his boyfriend.

"Hey, Virgil, can we talk outside for a bit?" Logan asked.

The question gained the attention of everyone in the room. The emo anxiously followed Logan to the second floor of the house. Rather than going to the backyard, they climber up onto the roof.

"What's up?" Virgil asked peering at the stars with pure love.

"I know we haven't known each other long, but please know that you can tell me anything," Logan stated.

"What's there to talk about?" Virgil questioned his eyes moving away from the stars and onto Logan.

"You know what, for today, how about we talk about the stars," Logan suggested.

So they did. They laid on the roof of the imperfect house and talked about the stars. They weren't bothered, they were left to themselves, not having to worry about anything. It was a moment that Virgil hadn't had since grade school.

"Hey, Logan, Roman and I are headed to bed. I love you, goodnight," Patton's voice disturbed the silence.

"I love you too. Tell Roman I love him," Logan called back before letting the silence once more resume.

"Sometimes I feel alone," Virgil muttered stopping the silence as Patton had just moments before.

"What do you mean?" Logan responded, his attention turning to the heterochromatic male.

"It's like I'm a ghost in a room full of people and I don't know that I'm a ghost. All of these people are talking to each other and having a good time and no one even sees me. I'm just waiting to be noticed because I don't know that it won't happen," Virgil explained.

"But, you just have to wait. Because there are people who are looking for you specifically and when they find you, you make their world," Logan responded.

"Huh, that's true. You know, Logan, you're not a robot," Virgil stated.

"I am aware," Logan nodded.

"But you don't want to be a robot either. Your emotions are something that you treasure. You only pretend to be a robot because your emotions have been targeted before," Virgil mumbled.

"What makes you say that?" Logan asked.

"Well, you show your emotions around Patton and Roman but around Carlos and I you shut down. But  just a few moments ago when I said I was alone, your emotions flipped on. You've been alone too, and you got out of it. That's why you keep your emotions to yourself. They were the reason you were alone, weren't they?" Virgil turned to face Logan.

Logan looked into Virgil's eyes and the stars were no longer the most amazing thing in the world. Virgil's eyes were multicolored. One eye was green and the other purple. The purple eye looked like millions of galaxies. The green eye was like flower fields.

"Yeah, my parents hated my emotions because they wanted me to be perfect. Anytime I showed emotions I got in trouble. When I first met Patton I wasn't actually allowed to be friends with him. I wasn't allowed to have friends. I thought it was normal so I just listened. But then Patton started to hang out with me more. He brought Roman and soon I fell in love with them. My parents moved me to another town and I had never known true loneliness until I had Patton and Roman and then I didn't. It was horrible and I shut myself off. But Patton saved me and now it's just hard to not go back into that mindset when I meet knew people," Logan admitted.

Logan hadn't ever told anyone that story. The only people that knew it were the people he grew up with and was dating. It was weird to open up so quickly but also oddly comforting. Logan could trust Virgil.

"My parents died when I was four," Virgil stated. "When I was moved from foster home to foster home and it was never good on my mental health. I met Carlos in middle school. I only stayed at the school for a few months but he didn't stop talking to me after I moved. We later went to the same boarding school it was for highschool students and we stated dating shortly after," Virgil explained.

"Carlos was the first person to ever care about you?" Logan seemed very intrigued by this statement.

"Well, you could say that. I had a friend when my parents were still alive but I don't remember his name or anything. He was awesome though. Anyway, he stuck with me for about a year after they died but them I moved towns. But Carlos was the first in a while," Virgil nodded.

"Do you ever think that maybe you got it wrong?" Logan questioned.

"How do you mean?"

"Well, I had never truly been cared for in my entire life and I got together with Patton. But, in college, we were all separated. I got in a relationship with the first person to care since Patton. And they were horrible. Maybe you did the same thing with Carlos," Logan suggested.

"Sometimes I think about that. I think about where I would be and what I would be doing if I hadn't jumped into a relationship with the only person to have ever cared about me, but then I think about it and I know I did the right thing. We argue a lot and sometimes I have to go stay at a hotel because we.cantnstand being around each other, but we always apologize. We always make up and I think that's why we're good for each other," Virgil explained.

"Does he ever apologize?" Logan questioned.

"What?"

"Does he ever say sorry to you? Does he ever claim the fault?" Logan reiterated.

"Well...no. But that's because it is my fault. I upset him and I shouldn't do that," Virgil explained.

"Ah, I see. Are you tired?" Logan asked.

"Not particularly," Virgil answered.

"Well then let's lay here until we fall asleep, yeah?" Logan offered.

"Yeah."

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