Cluttered bookshelves and desks, dirty clothes on the floor, a lawn yet to be mowed- nothing being where it should. Time is the factor. If I had more time, then I'd be able to get everything done. I'd be able to see the countertops, and maybe be elligible for yard of the week.
What about all the free time and goals I could achieve? It'd be about time I finally took those vocal lessons! I've always known a name was missing from the Hollywood lights- mine of course! When I get everything organized and on track, I'd be able to live my dreams!
Wait a second.
What have I been doing prior to this realization? Living? Living what exactly. Well, I believe everything happens for a reason. So all those late nights, and heartbreaks- all those tears and laughs that seemed to come without warning, had a purpose. Every time I've fallen flat on the floor, ripped my pants amongst the company of others, or made a complete goofball out of myself; that made me who I am today. Who would I be if any of those insignificant events hadn't taken place?
I have no idea.
Messiness may be just the flavor and unpredictibility God knew life needed when he presented it to man. Without it, is life really worth living? Knowing what's around every corner, being completely void of the emotion of surprise; I wonder if some to the virtues we hold dear would remain true. Working hard to achieve one's goals would lose its concept of struggle and reward; trial and error. I guess on the reverse side however; cheating ones way to the top would be ineffective because life would be nothing but a destination rather than a journey.
Planning a date that went terribly wrong may, at the time seem quite traumatic, but later, can result in a hilarious memory, or a situation needed to stumble down life's hills and valleys. On the contrary, having a spur of the moment event in which someone you never had expected come into your life and make you happier than you ever thought you could be. Why would anyone think what their plans are, would truly mark the capstone of everything they can accomplish? Being surprised by that home run, or astonished that even you can find love after countless experience with heartbreak; those are the moments that make us feel practically untouchable, as if by some simple twist of fate, we leave our human nature behind to become something more powerful, more absolute.
So, in essence, life without the chaos and uncertainty would be like watching a rock hooked up to a heart monitor- flatline. So next time you feel the grass is always greener on the other side and that nothing ever goes your way; remember that life isn't about the soft landing, it's about the planes we jump out of with no parachute; the wounds we sustain as we crash to Earth, and how we pick up and keep running.
