my heart was still racing.
the words he said to me.
i'm grateful because i'm still alive.
surprised he didn't kill me on the spot.
"tell the authorities and i'll kill you before they get to me."
"keep your eyes open. i'll always be watching you."
"act as if you didn't see all this. act poorly and i'll kill you."
"don't try to escape me. it won't work babygirl."
each word that came out his mouth shook me to the core.
he's been tracking me. watching me.
he wanted me to find him.
to let me know that i was in danger.
i heard my phone ring. the name 'baby' popping up onto the screen.
if i didn't pick it up he would know, and he would kill me. because that would be acting poorly.
i picked it up on the second ring, bringing it up to my ear, his deep voice playing over the phone.
"baby,"
he starts,
"i still love you. you know that right?"
and the stupid part is,
i still loved him too.
a shaky "yes" slipped from my lips.
"it's just a job baby. i won't hurt you unless.. things don't go right."
"what things?"
he hisses over the phone, tapping his nails on a table near him.
"complications. like you.."
"l-like me?"
"you.. not complying."
so don't call the feds, he means.
"can we meet up? i wanna get that night off your mind."
but i didn't want to. it felt like i was being lured into a trap.
a trap i knew i could never get out of.
"y/n?"
"o-okay."
there was silence on the other end, just the sound of his calm breaths were heard.
"y/n."
"huh?"
"baby."
"yes?"
"are you scared of me?"
yes.
"no.."
"are you lying?"
yes.
"no, Junnie."
he sighs, the relief calming him.
"i'll be there in ten.."
"NO. i mean no— i'll go to you.."
