TO ALL THE BOYS | Be Mine

I can't do this

LARA JEANS POV
As soon as peter was gone i went to my room got ready for bed turned of the lights when i got a few messages from people i don't know

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ooh god girl you are such an attention whore you only hurt yourself to get the attention

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You are a slut and no one would disagree with me

Then there were these three messages which broke me and i just couldn't take it anymore it was already 2am when i read them

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your mum is turning around in here grave she is definitely ashamed of you who would blame her you whore

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GO kill yourself already no one wants you here and then you can go cry to your mommy you sensitive bitch 😂

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i wonder when peter realizes how ugly slutty and fat you are who would like you go kill yourself your mum is probably glad she died so she doesn't have to see what you are

I broke down in sobs why me? I did the one thing i used to do when i was stressed and that is digging my nails in my palms i don't know what happened but i was bleeding a lot because i dug them to deep. i started when my mum died and now with these three messages it ripped open old wounds literally
I didn't want to wake anyone but i needed someone to talk to so i called the first person who came to mind

I dialed the number it rang five times until he picked up

PETERS POV
"Lj what's wrong it's 3am ?" I heard silent sobs when she said "i-i-i- am sor-ry" with that she hung up on me i was super concerned so i got my stuff and sprinted to my car

LARA JEANS POV
I said i'm sorry hung up and cried more i was having a panic attack they usually happen when someone mentions my mom but this was the worst one so far i couldn't breathe my window was open but still no Air i cried until i saw someone coming through my window

He came