SUICIDAL LOVE

CHAPTER ONE

Cassey's POV

"Mum..see I finally came to this godforsaken bridge. Heck I'm even drunk and dad is going to kill me if she finds out, so shhh!!!Okay? Never tell on me. So how have they been treating you?"

I was on the bridge staring at the water, mum must be happy where she is. I then moved on and my vision cleared up for a while, I saw a figure ahead. I'm seeing things. Yah am seeing things. I'll never drink again.
Okay maybe am lying to myself but I'll try not to drink very often. Yah!Yah! that's it.
Okay that is definitely someone. I'm not seeing things.

"Hey is someone there? I can see something but not so clear — URRGH!!this heels are killing me. Wait... aren't you on the wrong side of the bridge?" I'm starting to sound like a mad woman but before I can completely space out the figure moves and responds ...well like insult me but who cares??

"Fuck off lady!"

"Hey that not very fucking nice of you, you know. Wait there I'll go get some help."

"Lady, I said fuck off.."

"Hey that's not safe there,okay, let me help you. This side is safer,much safer, you know if my mum ....if mum would have listened to me and stop- Ah! There's someone coming this way let me ask for some help okay??"

I saw something come our way that snapped me from that memory, it looked like a car maybe they can help him. So I walk on towards the light ahead. I know its sounds like I'm dying but no..not really.

"Hey help!!!help!!" I say waving my hand to catch their attention.
" Help me,wait that's wrong...Ammm!!Help this  man. Hey!!someone hel-" I was cut off by someone yanking me of the path. I might have sobered up a little when I saw the car zoom past me. I might have died.

"Hey!!!You almost run over me you psycho." I shout as the car goes out of my sight. I turn to see a guy staring at me probably panting. I then look over the bridge to the edge and I don't see the figure anymore.

"You got down by yourself, good for you!" I say as I start or try to stand up. The  guy then helps me to my feet and picks up my phone from the ground. It's a bit bursted maybe broken, I can't really tell.

"Oh! com'on  that was brand new. Hey! Hey! Look..look at me, you are paying for a new phone you hear me." I say looking straight into the guy's eyes. Then there's crystal silence as we continued to stare at each other.

"Blue, nice....just like my mum.." I say as I let out a toothy smile. I think I have been rambling on since I saw him. I actually pretty drunk and won't remember ant of this. I hope.

"Uhhh! Thanks...are you drunk or just high?" He asks.

"Mmmm.." I try to weigh my answer. It takes a while but I then answer. "Definitely drunk. Dad's going to kill  me." I laugh while remembering the last time I came home drunk.

"Okay then let's get you home then." He says carrying me bridal style. He led me to his car, well more like carried me..and help me strap my seatbelt before going to the other side. I think I must have dozed off because the next thing I saw was my garage door.

"No!no way! You brought me home?" I say probably shocked because I don't remember telling him the way to my place. Anyway I was home, I guess dad wasn't. But Zack was, I could see  his car parked on the side walk.

"Whose car is that if you don't mind." He asks. 

"That's Zack's he's probably inside worried sick. I guess dad hasn't come back from his business trip." I say as I try to open the door.

"Fuck!" I sigh loudly after  struggling to remove my seatbelt.

"Hey, let me help you." He says getting out of his seat and running towards mine. He helps me out and walks me towards my door. I take out my key from my  pocket and lean towards the door.

"Let me." He says when he sees I clearly can't see the fucking keyhole.

"Ahh!Much appreciated. Would you like something to drink because I really do." I say politely trying to thank him for  his help.

"No. Am fine, really." He says reassuring me he's fine.

"Okay. Thanks for your help. Reall-" am interrupted by the realization that I haven't seen Zack. Maybe he's upstairs. "Give me one minute." I say walking, well staggering upstairs.

"Zack! Zack are you here??" I call out but no one responds I then here some sounds coming from my room. I slowly move towards my door and open it to reveal my half naked boyfriend and some girl.

" Do you mind explaining." I say as calmly as I can. Thank God am drunk or this would have gone badly.

"Cassey..you're back..." He says. That's what you say after I catch you fucking another girl in my bed.  Now am just disappointed in my choices in men. Really I am. Is it that I am drunk or is it that am not that surprised? I don't know maybe both??

"That's what you have to say after I catch you with someone else in my bed..my fucking bed ,Zack." I say still calm.

"Look..I can explain." He says. Way to help your case. Every dude says that when they are caught. I guess they feel  sorry coz they were actually caught. I won't have it.
Nop!!am going to listen to the crap he's gonna come up with since am pretty sure he's not prepared for me to actually want one.
You know how girls never stay  to listen to what they have to say? Well am not running again, am not going to be one and the same with every girl, not now not ever.

"Well... Go ahead am listening." He's eyes widen at my calmness. He then slowly slips of the bed revealing to identity of the girl. Rimona!!!

"You have to be fucking kidding me right now. Rimona of all people. You just had to..." I sigh as I walk closer to my bed. "You know what am not gonna bother anymore. Just leave."

Once I say those two words she scrambles to get her things. I look over to Zack who is doing the same.

"Not you." I say and he freezes temporarily. " Hey..honey leave those." I say to the busy Rimona.

"A minute ago you didn't need those and I think you won't." I pause then a lip tight smile creeps up my face. "Let go, honey."

"But..but.." She tries  to plead with me am not hearing any of it.

"No! no! no! Not a word." They caught me on a bad day. And they were going to have it. I lead her downstairs. She was only in her inner wear. She sluggishly walks down the stairs as I follow.

Once we reach the living room. I point out to the door and she walks towards it. She slowly opens it and walks out.

"And don't come back!" I shout as I slam the door. I turn to meet Zack staring at me closely.

"I'm still wait for an explanation, Zack. Com'on hurry up am fucking tired right now."

"Cassey are you drunk??" He asks me.

"Wait, who gave you permission to ask me questions?" I say rubbing my temple irritated.

"I think we should talk when you are a little bit sobber."

" You think we should talk when am a little bit sobber.. Okay so you think that there's gonna be a difference when am not drunk. Am actually a good listener when an drunk. No, that's not it is it?" I ask looking at him for an answer.

"You actually don't have a good explanation for what I just walked into, do you? That's what I figured...You know what?"

"What?" He asks curious.

"Fuck all this, you here me fuck all this. I'm going to sleep, am tired." I say this as I walk up the stairs.

"This has been a long day!"