I have this feeling in my chest that I can't really explain, I don't know what it is, it's not jealously.. it can't be, how can I be jealous if i didn't even want him? Or at least I thought I didn't. It's there and it hurts and it just won't go away, I'm trying to make it stop but I can't and the more I make it stop the more it hurts and I have a lump in my throat as if I'm gonna cry but how can I cry if I don't feel like crying? Does it hurt that much that I didn't even know? *tears roll down my face* how can I feel this way without even knowing sooner? Could this be hurt? But I don't get it, I didn't feel that way about him, how am I hurt? *shakes my head and sighs*
