from being a broken clock to a happy girl

she's not okay

Are you okay?
"Yeah I'm good."
Are you lying?
"Yes"

I find myself comforting people with words I want to you
I've cried myself a river and...
Even built myself a bridge but...
I slipped and fell in,
And without your love to save me,
I drowned

I've learned that I don't need water to drown
I tried so hard to make everyone's dreams come true and...
I got lost in my own nightmares
I've typed "I'm fine" with shaky fingertips and bloodshot eyes multiple times
But I'll be fine...right?

I cry alone in my own room,but that's fine
I don't sleep at night, but that's also fine
I'm in so much pain, it's tearing me apart inside, but that's also fine
I've cried so much I can feel my heart shrivel up in my chest,but that is also fine

Haaaa!!!!who am I kidding
It has never been okay
I need help, comfort,love and assurance
I feel like screaming
Crying has never been enough for me

I'm broken...I need self love
Am I lucky to be here this long
Yepppp