Abuse, Torture, and Pain: My life

There's a necklace of death

I saw once in my life

I missed my chance by a breadth

And now i am filled with such strife

My mom put on the necklace

Now shes gone

It made my life amiss

And now i deal with hells spawn

She took her life

As i saw with my eyes

She wrapped the rope around her neck

And inhaled her last breath

She jumped from the chair

Purple from lack of air

A choking sound

My life was crashing down

'Mom please i need you here'

I screamed as she shed a tear

I called 911

But she was already gone

The one person who'd never leave my side

I just wish that it were me who died

The day i got back

After my panic attacks

I just couldn't eat

So i got beat

It was the start of so much more

More physical pain i have had ever before

Hiding the bruise

A challenge I lose

Making an excuse

So hard to stand the abuse

Late one night

I was so scared i was white

My dad slammed and broke everything he could

I hid, waiting for him to look, i knew he would

He found me as i cry

With a crazed look in his eye

More angry than ever before

He took the last thing i had to store

He took my innocence

I knew what this meant

More and more types of pain for years

So many nights spent crying pointless tears

I cried away my once valiant spirit

But in a place no one could hear it

The one who could protect me had died

At her own hands she took her own life

So i would take my own

The only way out i had ever known

I woke up to something so bright

I could only assume it was heavens light

Then walked in a nurse

And i couldn't think of anything worse

I was back in hell

A place where the strongest fell

I saw now way to live on

I could only wish I would be gone

I was in a mental ward

I had to get out everything i had stored

The psychologist was shocked by what i had said

He said he wished my dad to be dead

He reported him to the police

I finally saw that as a release

All i had to was cope with the pain

Maybe there's an end to this torrential rain