Playing House [ON HOLD]

Chapter 12

Meghan's POV

After Matthew had left we all sat down for dinner/lunch. Not having Matthew here made me both happy and sad, sad because I really wanted to spend some time with him and happy because, I know Lizz would question him like the FBI. The food tasted amazing all thanks to Lizz. I was not the one gifted with the skill of cooking or even cleaning if we are being honest.

I was mostly good at my job, which I'm questioning at the moment. A little after Matthew had left I got a call from my boss's assistant saying that I have to get a second marketing plan for the company ready by Friday for the third quarterly meeting. I had just submitted a marketing plan a few weeks ago at a board meeting and now he wants another one claiming it's because the investors need "options". Like I mean come on this isn't a fast food menu.

"Your thinking hard" Lizz chirped from beside me

"What?" I asked with a puzzled look on my face

"Your probably thinking of Matthew"

"No I'm not even thinking of him" I stated defensively

"Then?"

"It's about work actually if you must know"

I had always been good at my job, but being good at my job and loving my job or even liking it was a whole other thing. Every since my boss tried to come on to me and he basically got punched, work has been tuff. With the early deadlines I had to meet plus the added work he's been throwing at me it's getting too much. I know the right thing would be to stick it out but I'm not sure it's worth it.

"Your boss giving you trouble again" Lizz asked

"Doesn't he always" was George's reply

"Yea but it's more than that" I sank into my couch coffee in tow

"How so?" Lizz sat forward as she asked

"I'm not sure that I want to do it anymore" my tone of voice was both serious and sad "its like it's getting harder and I don't want to stick it out, I just don't feel it's worth it" I sighed

"I think you should do what makes you happy, haven't you always wanted to open a cafe. I think this will be great for you" Lizz said reassuringly

"I think it's a good idea too Meg, you need to do what makes you happy I know some people that are interested in small business I could always talk to them if you need investors" George pipes in

"Ok slow down for a bit, I haven't even decided to leave my job yet, So one thing at a time"

The thought of leaving my job seemed so real now, it wasn't something I was tossing around in my head. I remember when I was fresh out of college I use to talk about owning my own cafe someday, and like most dreams it was left as just a dream. I never acted, but was that what I wanted to do with my life? Own a cafe? The idea was appealing and it did spark something, but I needed to figure somethings out before I make the decision to leave my job and take up a new career.

One of those things being Matthew. We had gotten pretty hot and heavy in the bathroom a few hours ago and it completely blindsided me. But it had felt so good being held by him, seeing the passion and desire that he had for me and experiencing it too. I was still a bit flushed but who could blame me the kiss alone made me want to explode. I'll admit I am attracted to him but who wouldn't be, he was handsome, charming, polite and so much more. I genuinely liked him allot but, he had a daughter.

Now I know what your thinking, but in a logical sense, if me and Matthew do end up having a serious relationship Issabell will be in my life too, that's if he even wants a serious relationship. Don't get me wrong Issabell is a doll but a child even if the child is a boyfriend's child is a big responsibility. I'm not sure I'm ready for that or even a serious relationship.

Knowingly or unknowingly I just decided to quit my job and possibly start a career as a independent business owner. A relationship is not going to work out if I actually go through with that. I would need to work extra hard and focus all my time on my new career.

My head started to hurt with all this thinking, I sat down my coffee and lightly pressed my fingers to my temples while softly rubbing it to ease the pain.

"You know headaches aren't supposed to start till after you quit" Lizz had her eyes trained on me "just relax meg it's not like your gonna quit tomorrow, and you do have money saved up for when you do"

"I know that but it's a lot to think about, quiting my job and starting a business by myself"

"Me and Lizz will be here for you meg" George said reassuringly.

"George is right your not gonna be alone , you have us" Lizz have me a reassuring smile.

After some more chatting and catching up with everyone, Lizz George and the kids headed home. I was just about to take a much needed bath when I heard a soft knock at my door. As I got closer and closer to it, a little part of me wanted it to be Matthew. I guess I secretly hoped that he had finished up with his work early and stopped by.

When I did open the door instead of the man I had hoped for it was a women. She looked as if she was homeless with her worn cloths and shoes, unkept hair and dirty skin. At first I didn't know what to do or say she was just standing there and looking at me.

"Am hi would you like something to eat?" She nodded in response

I walked back into my kitchen and took out the remaining pasta and placed it in a bowl. I grabbed a few water bottles from the fridge and placed them together in a plastic bag and handed it to her. She gave me a weak smile that left me uneasy and she turned and left nit saying anything.

Later that night when I had settled down in bed my mind went back to the women I had given food. I lived in a private apartment building and only persons who had keys could come in. So having a homeless person at my door seemed pretty strange. However my thoughts on that quickly faded as I thought about what I would do about work.

After a few hours of weighting my options and debating with my self, I finally decided that I would be quitting at the end of the year. I realized that marketing was the sensible option for me but it wasn't what I want d to do with my life. Especially since I'm being asked to produce new marketing plans every week.

I did toss around the idea of opening a cafe and the spark was still their but I still wasn't sure about it. But I had the time to decide I had about four months to come up with a new business idea that was going to make me happy, and I deserve to do something that makes me happy.

But doing what makes me happy is going to require alot of sacrifice, one being Matthew and his daughter. I won't have the time for a relationship with him, I would need to focus all my time on my business. But I could still enjoy it while it lasts. I don't have to break up with him right away, heavens know I know what I'll be missing. By the time I had managed to fall asleep it was almost midnight, and I still was completely lost, but hopefully tomorrow would be different.

Author's Note
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