I'm your angel (Eren x Reader)

Chapter 2 - Please help me, I lose myself...

At the same time....

Eren´s P.o.v.

We had an expedition outside the walls a few days ago. Many were injured, including me. For some reason, it seemed like my wounds aren´t able to heal and no one knew why.

Except me.

I felt so bad for the injured to see them like this, so I tried with all my strength to slow down the healing process that it is like from a normal human being and not a titan shifter.

Of course, Mikasa and Armin were really worried about me, and I think they could somehow feel that something withing me was wrong.

I have seen so many dead and seriously injured people. People which were torn in pieces and you did not know what part of the body that limb belongs to, and people which were so traumatized that they have started to pull out their own hair on the way back. Even Hanji, which usually is always happy, had only an emotionless face left for this situation. It was almost too cliched as it, on the way back, also began to rain.

I sighed and stared out the window. It was still raining, even after 3 days, it was pouring and everything way black, gray and depressing.

We were sitting at a table in the large dining room. By we I mean Mikasa, Armin, Jean, me, Sasha and Connie. Apart from us the room was empty. The others were either dead or injured and the ones in the upper positions were just having a meeting and hence they were not here.

It was very quiet and the atmosphere was really dark and murky, even if Sasha now and then made an attempt to cheer us up.

"Eren, please eat something!" Mikasa reminded me and pushed into my side to get me out of my thoughts.

I had, since that day, lost my hunger and rarely ate something, and when I do then only to have my peace from Mikasa.

I sighed and let my gaze wander down on our table.

Since so many died, we always had too much food left over, and that could be clearly seen in our portions. We always got a very large bowl of soup and at least two loaves of bread for one person.

The people in Sina only say that we should be pleased that we have finally enough food and we could eat everything. Although they were right about that, it just let the anger boil inside me.

Sure more food is good, but not at this price!

Hesitantly, and not really hungry, I grabbed the bread and dipped it into the soup. I only head her sigh in relieve, but soon it was, apart from the noise we made while we were eating, dead silent.

"Jäger?" I heard it hiss behind me suddenly.

Of course, it was immediately clear to each of us who it was.

Lance Corporal Levi Ackerman.

Even he had changed a bit after the expedition. He had not even make us clean since that day, and he himself has also only done the most necessary.

I think this expedition was one of the worst they ever had experienced.

And for what? Or rather because of what?

Just because they wanted to reach my house, my basement, because I had told them that I believed that there were our answers how we would be able to defeat the Titans.

I put my bread back on the table and gave Sasha a meaningful look. She nodded slightly, but didn´t move a bit.

I stood up, turned around and saluted, albeit rather weak and not really taking care whether I was standing.

He nodded slightly and left the room. Reluctantly, I followed him.