Tomorrow And Today Beside You

One

I was busy molding the wax for my candle when my phone beeps sign that I got a text message. My phone actually got heated up from the missed calls though. But I chose to ignore it and instead started to fill up the small sized tin cans of wax. I get myself busy to distract my mind from madness, frustrations, and anxieties. I hate being so hopeless and selfless, giving love so much and didn't get love much in return. I'm just tired of begging someone to stay. Can they care about me just a little bit? Arghhh, men!

"Ouch!", the wax I'm pouring in were already wasted in the table. This is what I'm talking about, distractions! Men are distractions! I am a bitter old hag wanting to be cared of, to be loved of but nah.. How can this be so hard and difficult eh?

I already have tried every relationship, from casual to long distance name it. Already experienced all that. But it seems like everything about him was surreal. I didn't mean to fall in love with him because we only meet thru online dating site but when we met at last, boom! That's when the wall i built collapsed. This is going nowhere, the need of wanting him more is getting me nuts and I need to move on.

I put the melting pot at the side of my working table and lift my phone to see who was it.... Tsk, Derek! The nerve of this man! Can't he be happy and celebrating now that I finally let him go?

Yes. Derek is my boyfriend's fucking name, well my now Ex. And imagine he's an Attorney but an asshole! Heh, I couldn't believe it had been two years since I'd been with him. Despite the fact that it was a love struck online, I sincerely believed I had found the one.

To cut a long story short, we met on Tinder and he drew my attention so much that when he proposed we meet for coffee, I couldn't say no.

His family operates a large law firm in the Philippines that is well-known across Asia. Men's Magazine also called him the "Hottest Bachelor." You may be wondering why he joined Tinder; I really don't know, but based on what I've learned and his explanation, his friends bet on him to open an account to see if he can meet anyone there, and that's where our story begins. Isn't it amusing?