Beomgyu's Reasons Why [ BeomJun/ YeonGyu / TaeGyu ]

TAPE 1, SIDE B

TW: Swearing. Mentions of suicide. Offensive words.

Taehyun barely had a wink of sleep.

What he did to Beomgyu was terrible. He thought Beomgyu has forgotten about it, but let's be honest here— who would forget about something like that?

It was different-- hearing Beomgyu's voice saying things, speaking his thoughts about Taehyun. The entire time Beomgyu spoke bitterly in his ears, he was crying, tears that hurt his eyes rather than provide him catharsis.

"Taehyun! It's time for breakfast." His mother knocked on his door.

Apparently, Taehyun was half asleep the whole night. He didn't remove the tape from the player... he just stared at the ceiling the entire time, remembering every detail of what Beomgyu had said.

Taehyun didn't feel like going to school.

"Taehyun? You're going to be late." But he was still disciplined. Many of his juniors looked up to him, and an absence from a class might take away his chances at being the batch's valedictorian.

He began to question whether a person like him deserved to be someone's role model. If he deserved having his name written on the principal's list.

He never should've joined ZEETA. Maybe Beomgyu would be alive, maybe... Taehyun would feel differently towards him. Well, he did.

Taehyun has always felt things for Beomgyu, and maybe that's why Taehyun chose him. It was stupid. Taehyun was so stupid for thinking Beomgyu would get over it.

Taehyun was so stupid for letting his fucking pride take over.

"What if I don't want to join you guys?" Taehyun threw back a question to Hongjoong , who approached him in the cafeteria where he was eating with Soobin.

"C'mon, Tyun. It's all support and parties. We'll help each other, everyone benefits from everyone, besides, I'm already one of them," Soobin said.

"Just because you're there doesn't mean I'll join you. Frats are fucked up--"

"Then let's be fucked up together," Hongjoong replied, leaning a hand on the table.

"Nah, I can handle myself. I don't need dicks like you, you'll probably get me expelled or something. At the very least, I'd get caught up in the fucked up shit you guys do."

Hongjoong looked back towards Soobin, quirking an eyebrow. "Does he usually swear this much, Soobin?"

"No, he's just stressed. There's this test he hasn't studied for because his cat passed away."

Taehyun snickered. "Yeah, and that test is right after break, so please let me eat in peace so I can review--"

"You're Kang Taehyun, do you even need to study?" Hongjoong continued to feed Taehyun's ego.

"I can't lose to Chaeryeong. If I make as much as one mistake, I'd lose my spot."

"So what if you lose?" Hongjoong pressed. His eagerness to recruit Taehyun wouldn't baffle anyone in the school, it was normal for the frat to have the insanely talented, skilled, and smart as a brother. Soobin was one of those people, being the EIC, he already had many connections.

Soobin gave Taehyun a sympathetic look. That face of sympathy was first of the many reasons Taehyun worked through his initiation.

Taehyun's family isn't exactly... financially stable. Both he and his mother have been depending on his father, and lately, Taehyun has found out that his father was cheating. He couldn't bring himself to tell his mother, because everything would go to shit.