Nightmare.Series: How do you sleep at night?

3rd Nightmare

A/N: It's been awhile since I've updated HAHA I'll try to be active from now on....

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"Do you like someone?" Rica, my classmate, the most popular dancer at our campus interrupted me while I was busy with my homework.

I looked up to her, not really knowing what to answer from her question. "Huh?"

She chuckled, "I was asking if you have a crush, someone you're interested in to"

Her eyes were full of anticipation, joining in also two of our classmates behind her. They were staring at me intently, waiting for an expected answer or something. This kind of attention makes me anxious and I don't like it. I have to answer this immediately as much as possible.

Crush? Someone I'm interested in? That has never even crossed into my mind. I didn't know what to answer. They must be expecting an answer which obviously means I have but in reality, I don't. What does it take for a person to have crush on someone? Is it something valuable for each person? Now that I think about it. I don't know what I'm attracted to.

"Well? Do you have anyone in mind?" Asked the other girl

"I'm sure you do. You're always so isolated, maybe you're hiding something" said the other girl.

Isolated? Was I always this secretive to them? But I don't really have anything to hide from anyone. It's just that every time that I try socialize, I don't really get the same treatment as the others. They would always laugh and just walk away. Sometimes they would tell me I'm boring. I didn't actually understood what they meant but it must've been something bad and I didn't want to further disappoint them.

I took a deep breath, "No, I don't have anyone in mind"

And their expressions changed from intrigued to dismay and left. They might've been so disappointed. But I only told them the truth. Does one person really have to be attracted to another? Is it a requirement? I've seen so many people my age getting so heat up by liking others. But does it really matter if we have someone we really like?

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It was lunch time and everyone went to the cafeteria except for me and my other 3 male classmates. They would always just stay inside and eat together. Sometimes they would hide in the corner and watch something on their phone. They'd yell at me and force me to get out, I didn't really understood why but I'd end up going outside.

I was able to finish my lunch and decided to just roam around the hallway. It was quiet and relaxing. I would always do this every lunch time. There wasn't really much of a hassle since all the students are occupied with their youth moments. And I, on the other hand would always just walk around until lunch is over.

As I was able to pass by at some random section just near our classroom, I saw a masculine figure wearing the same uniform as mine. He was just sitting near the door of their classroom while scrolling through his phone. He was checking out women wearing nothing at all. Must be someone he is attracted to. Must be his crush. Is that how you get to have a crush? I'm curious.

He must've felt my presence as to which he turned to where I was standing. He looked to me up and down. As if he was scanning me or something. I stood frozen due to my anxiety kicking in. Did I interrupt him? Did my very existence disappoint him?

A few minutes passed and we were just staring at each other. He had this very pitch black eyes, it was full of-- nothing. He was staring at me intensely, but it felt nothing at the same time. It was like staring at a blank canvas, but painted with shallow black paint. He was giving me shivers but my heart - it was beating so fast. It was painful but full of pleasure. What is this feeling? Am I sick? Maybe I'm having a fever. I felt hot.