Regret Not Risking (Thespians Club #1)

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"I'm really sorry."

I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out. He then turned his back against us. I stood there for few seconds, shocked about what he said. I looked like I had been dumped. 

Desiree tried to follow Zeus but I immediately stopped her. I just wanted to go home. 

"Are you sure you're gonna be fine?" Tanong ni Desiree habang binubuksan ko ang gate ng bahay namin.

"Yes, I'll be," I lied. "Go home ka na."

"Sure ha," she looked concerned. "Just call me if you need me, I'm just one call away."

She said 'goodbye' at umalis na rin. I went inside na rin.

"I'm home!" Medyo mahina kong sigaw na hindi ko alam kung narinig nila.

I went inside my room agad at nilagay ang bag ko sa couch. Nagpalit na rin ako ng pambahay. I wore a pink shirt and a black pair of leggings. Pagkapalit ko, humiga ako sa kama, thinking about what Zeus said.

'I was the one who told them to mock you...'

Gwapo ka sana, pangit lang ugali. Sayang ka.

I cried to sleep. I was tired, tired of the people around me, tired of their fucking attitudes, fucking judgmental minds! I am tired of everything. There are times that I just wanna rest permanently. But I just can't... Because of Desiree... And my family... I guess?

"Ate!" My little sister woke me up.

Dinilat ko ang aking mata at kinusot ito. I stretched my arms as well, gusto pang matulog. I opened my eyes again, shocked to see my friend.

"Desiree?" Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at kumurap.

"Anong ginagawa mo rito?" Napaayos ako ng upo, shocked to see her... with a backpack.

"Duh, ano pa ba?" Umupo siya sa paanan ng kama ko. "Sleepover!"

I rolled my eyes. "Tsk."

Hay nako. May bahay naman siya pero ba't dito siya matutulog? 'Di sa nagco-complain ako ah, pero pwede rin. Hehe.

"Nah," I looked at her. "Kidding aside, I know you're not okay. Look oh," tinuro niya eyes ko. "Mag-wash ka nga ng face mo muna!"

I hugged her and went to my bathroom. Gaya ng inutos niya, nag-hilamos ako dahil namaga mata ko sa pag-iyak ko kanina. 

Pagkalabas ko, pinipisil ni Desiree ang cheeks ng kapatid kong nakakandong sa kanya.

"You're so cute, not like your ate." Tumawa siya.

"Nye nye, bahala ka nga." Pikon kong sabi. "'Wag ka matulog dito ha."