Devastated Omega, Determined Alpha

Chapter 8: Scents and Pain

Harry's POV:

Louis didn't come home until 12 am again, and my heart sank more. He must be going out with coworkers a lot I guess. I couldn't help but become jealous..... What was he like with new people? Was he as charismatic like when I met him?

Day 2 of basically not eating went well. I skipped breakfast and only veggies for lunch. I couldn't break my diet. No, I couldn't gain any more weight and I was determined. It was getting harder to tell Sammy I wasn't hungry and she finally came up to me, "Hun, you haven't been eating much, you sick?", she asked in a motherly tone and put her hand up to my forehead.

I had a choice, lie to her or tell the truth, "No, not sick. Just trying to eat clean you know?", I said as convincingly as possible. I've known how to loose weight healthily, but I didn't have time.... I was loosing my alpha. "Oh Harry, you need balanced meals, and I'll cook you up well rounded meals. Louis said to make you food you love and because you're feeding Mathew, but I'll make ya some low cal things.", she said with a smile, and I felt awful. I knew I wouldn't eat it...

If I was determined, nothing could change my mind.

I decided to train too, so I lied to Sammy that I had a low carb snack and that I wanted to work out. Obviously it was just running because I didn't want to bulk up in anyway. The silhouette of Avery attacked my mind and made me feel worse. He was so so thin, pretty blonde hair, and blue eyes that were similar to Louis's.

Yea dumbass, our babies would of been beautiful, says the mocking voice of Avery.

Wolfie was getting taken care of by Sammy while I ran. After a bit, I felt so gross and light headed that I had to stop. My mind hurt so much too, I couldn't help but think about Louis's great grandfather and how his omegas must have felt having to share him. I have nothing to worry about, right? Louis's not like that....

As I was stretching, my phone went off, Liam? "Hello?", I asked timidly and Liam was wondering if he could come and have a pizza night with me because apparently Louis called him to keep me company. I had many many different feelings towards that, but agreed because Louis wanted it. Liam would come over and we would play Mario cart tonight, which was both our favorite. Although, I couldn't help but feel like Louis was hiding something from me, as if his friend was watching me so he he could do something sneaky.

I prepared some snacks and asked the maids to go get some stuff at the grocery store.... Honestly I missed mundane things like going out to buy ingredients...

I wonder what Louis's doing......

Louis's POV:

I went home to see Harry already asleep, which I was grateful for. I hated withholding the truth from him, but Diana was right.... He couldn't function and probably would need to go to the hospital if he found out any of this....

Next day, same shit. When we came in, it was shocking.... paper was beyond stacked and still printing out pages..... I took a deep breath and then took off my coat and so did others. It was like a task force and all at once we went to do our assignments. We all focused and they took breaks, but I powered through. Any time there was a pattern or going up in recent records in the last few years, it would go back down to the 90's.

We worked hard and felt like we would never get close to the date we needed to.

How's Harry? How's Matty?.... is he exhausted?......

I was lost in thought for a few seconds, but a few seconds to long.

We worked till lunch, and then I took a break because they convinced me to eat with them. We ordered some lunch up to the break room and I realized I needed to engage in conversation, no matter how fucked my brain was.