Devastated Omega, Determined Alpha

Chapter 3: I'd Give You the Moon If I Could

Harry's POV

The sound of the air going past the window could be heard as we drove back to our place where diner was about to be ready. The whole day we bummed out at the beach to just disconnect from the real world. While I picked up some shells and pretty rocks off the shore of the beach, Louis was rocking the baby while he was standing and watching me, and in Louis fashion complemented my ass as I bent over to pick off the beach. I looked at him and stuck my tongue out and continued with my search.

As we drove we watched the sun start to set while I held Louis's unoccupied hand in mine. His hand was so much more firm and strong that his whole hand enveloped mine when ever we held hands.

When we reached to the home we got out see Sammy holding the door for us with a sweet smile. Sammy has also become like family to me, like an aunt and she was always there to listen. She must have heard about the news and let us into the front door. Food was prepared and it smelled great but we just wanted some alone time so while I went straight to the room with Matty while Louis grabbed us some food. I saw a few of our crew scattered in the living room, but I didn't pay them any attention. I just needed to rest.

Louis came and set it up on the tiny table by our bed and I laid down thinking. As I was in my trance again I heard Louis filling up Colin's bowl with the dog food. The shells were so pretty that I got out the shells and went to the bathroom to wash them off and when I got in the room, I could hear that our baby had woken up.

He was particularly grumpy and I got him out of his car seat. He had a poop so I changed him and got some lightweight pjs on. The pjs were grey and yellow and had a matching passie also. His passie was used occasionally for hard bed times, and I just wanted him extra comfy tonight because I just need some time to myself and Louis. As I finished up Matty's change, Louis came in and set up the tiny table for us.

I strip my clothes off and bring up a blanket to hide my body from Louis, who was obviously focusing on not dropping the food. I've always sleep naked now at night so it was easier to stick Matty on me when I woke up and just because it's comfortable. As I sit up with my back on the headboard, I bring a few pillows near me to prop up Matty and asked Louis to hand me him. Louis, as a gentle giant he is, handed me the precious little thing like he was made of the thinnest glass.

Feeding took anywhere from 15-30 minutes and I was finally not feeling pain from nursing, just a bit uncombable every now and then. Once Louis got us some food on our plates, he realized I couldn't eat so fed me as my hands were occupied holding our baby. The tv sparks on so we could watch something fun. We looked and looked until we found some kind of baking show we never watched but it was really fascinating to see how the cakes were made and decorated. We soon put Matty to bed and both grabbed a quick shower before it was 10.

I took a shower first while Louis brought our dishes to the kitchen. I just wanted to be wrapped up in my soft blankets and pillows and drift away. Also, I felt like I wanted to nest, so I did after I put my pjs on. Louis came in while I fixed my area, "You stressed?", Louis asked as I smoothed out the last few wrinkles on my bed. I nod and then I happen to be facing the crib and didn't see a baby. "Uh Louis, where is Matty?" I ask looking on the ground because I thought he may have fallen. "He's with my parents. I told them we needed some time.", my cheeks suddenly blush, and I nodded timidly knowing what he wanted. He told me he needed to shower so he left and I was racking my brain on if I should be naked when he seems me, opted not to though. I was still shaken up from earlier.

Honestly I didn't want to, just cause all that I saw online... What was sadder was that just before I delivered I was gaining confidence, that Louis loved me in any stage, now I just feel like he's read the headlines and will realize I'm just a random average omega, maybe not even average but below.