My Reality ( #Wattys2015 )

Judging a Book by It's Cover

Daily life is quite funny.

I received a letter today. Included in the writing was one line which said 'we were quite surprised there were three hundred and sixty five pages about you'. They had received a file about my life up until now. I didn't write it.

It wasn't any surprise to me. I had lived my life. If I were to write it all, it would be a hell of a lot more pages long. Lucky them it was only short.

What did surprise me was the fact they were surprised it was so long. I had thought that in my brief overview of my life I had explained everything. Apparently not well enough.

People need to not judge a book by it's cover. They need to read the book.

When people ask me to explain my life, the first thing I say is 'it has been a colourful life' because it has. I didn't think my life had differed much from anyone else until a day a woman said to me, 'you have been through more in your short life than what many go through in an entire life time'. When she said that to me I said it hadn't been that bad (I have a high pain threshold). I see everything I have experienced as just life. If I saw it any other way then I probably wouldn't still be here. Living my life has made me strong.

I say people need to not judge a book by it's cover because the cover may look glorious but the pages within may be filled with untold horrors, pain or it may even be empty. My book I believe has a very colourful cover. The pages within, which there are many, are filled with sadness, pain, sorrow but also joy, love and understanding. It's a pretty good book I think.

I try my best because of the experiences I have had, to get to know people in whole. However, if there is a spike in my road of learning about them I will avoid it. I didn't used to avoid the spikes, but with education and knowledge on the true me it is getting easier.

Our lives are so large that if we were to work on something within ourselves sometimes the best place to start would be at the start. Otherwise it would be too overwhelming. Quite possibly the reason a lot of people think that they have failed with themselves or others. They've started at a point that has stuff behind and in front of it. Because of the world and society we live in, we're hard on ourselves, we push ourselves to the utmost limits for success.

A word of advice...go easy on yourself. You only have one body to live in while you're here, and only one mind.

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